When I was 12 years an older boy fucked me in a bathroom of a game room. It may sound like I was taken advantage of but I assure you it was one of the most enjoyable sexual experiences of my life. I was very much a willing participant.

I had already gone through puberty, with full pubic hair and penis growth. I had already noticed a strong attraction to men and and at the time, images of cocks I saw in porn mags. I had seen scenes of men and women having sex and I found I normally climaxed while looking at the mans body, be it his body in general, his butt, or cock and balls while playing with myself.

One afternoon I walked up to a gameroom near our neighborhood during the summer. We were left alone at that time while our parents worked. I was playing a game for a while when this guy must have been watching me. While playing, he eased up to the side of the game and watched for a while. I did not really notice him and then he made a few comments on how I was playing. He then leaned in and whispered in my ear, close enough to feel his hot breath, that I handled the joystick very well. He then changed my life forever. He told me he would be waiting in the bathroom for me and if I wanted to join him, we could have a lot of fun together if I knew what he means. I was old enough to know what he meant. My cock flew straight up, raging hard. My heart began racing. He kissed me on the cheek and said he would be waiting for me.

I turned my head and made eye contact with his deep blue eyes briefly. He smiled, winked and then turned and walked toward the bathroom. There was no one in the place. He was wearing short frayed cutoff jeans and a tank top. I was too young to know why, but as he walked off I looked at his body, his legs, and his butt and I melted. I wanted that, why, I did not know. But fuck I wanted it and my heart fluttered even faster. My mind went crazy, what do I do, am I gay, am I in danger, etc... Being gay at that time was so damn stygmitixed. The ultimate insult amongst boys at that age. My instincts just took over, I turned and walked towards the bathroom to join him.

I abandoned the game and walked toward my fate. I was in a daze as I approached the bathroom door. He was all I could think about. I opened the single bathroom door and walked in. He stood there naked and said I knew you would come. He rushed over and closd and locked the door. He nestled up behind me and I could beel his cock on my butt. I melted in his arms and pressed backwards. He held me and I turned my head back to see him. We kissed deeply. My first kiss. He pressed his tongue into my mouth which was foreign to me but felt awesome. I tried to reciprocate. I was in heaven.

I think he knew we did not have much time and he swiftly ripped all my clothes off. He pushed me to my knees and faced his cock. It was so beautiful. I wanted to please it so bad. He put his hands on the back of my head and I took him in my mouth. It was wonderful. I sucked it like crazy. He must have laughed at me I think now. I was in a frenzy. It felt so right so awesome to suck him. It must have turned him on but at the same time not been that pleasurable as I had never sucked cock before (I am a much better cock sucker now).

He pulled me up swiftly and bent me over the sink. He spit on my ass hole and pressed his cock up on me. All sorts of doubts went through my head. Am I a fag, boys don't do this, what would ny friends think? As he pressed into me, all those thoughts faded. It felt awesome and I wanted this. As he slowly pumped me I cannot tell you how much at that time I knew this is where I wanted to be. I was born gay, this is what I am. He was so kind to me. He took his time filling me and obviously knew this was my first time. He kissed me, told me how cute I was, how good my butt felt, and just made me feel so beautiful. I think he fucked me for like five minutes. He reached around and jacked me off. I came very quickly and he did soon after.

After cumming, he quickly dressed, kissed me on the lips, and left abruptly. I slowly dressed. I was in a daze, I had just lost my virginity to an older boy. I have so much to thank him for. The incredible sex for one. But removing any doubt that I was gay, that my attraction for men and not women was my destiny, was something I could thank him for forever. I would love to find him again.