We both liked getting naked, we would stand in front of each other and whack our penises against each other. The spontaneously we decided to grab each other's penises. This led to erections and more penis horseplay. This led to sucking each other. This led to peeing on each other in the shower. This led to rubbing our penis against each other's assholes. This led to fucking, we used my mother's Vaseline. We were nine.

I don't know how hormones work, I don't ask. I am most definitely the bottom partner. I love getting fucked, I love giving head, I love admiring a penis. I don't like dildos. I don't like black men. I do like sucking off my partner until he cums. I love eating cum. I love getting fucked and I love to know that he was able to cum while fucking me. I don't fuck, I stopped fucking when I was nine because I liked getting fucked more.

I am married to a woman. I fuck her, because it is not fair to be married to her and not fuck her. I married her so that I could have children. I keep her pretty close, I would be really pissed if I found out that some other guy was fucking her. I'm jealous in that way. I sincerely doubt that it has ever crossed her mind that I have had dozens of dicks in me and that I mess around with other men.

I don't know if I am gay, in the sense that my emotional bond is to her. I mean it, I am emotionally really attached to her, it is just that I have this need for a penis, sucking a penis and getting fucked by a penis.

For a while I joined this gay swinger's club, we sucked and fucked each other out in a crowd, at this one member's beach house. But it got boring after a while, same guys, same penises. I need something new and different. Except not black, I won't do black guys.

For a long time I thought I was sick. But I am not, I just like penises, I like sucking penises and I like getting fucked by penises. It is like a hobby. I fuck my wife and have a home life with my wife. Two worlds side by side.