For almost three years, I went through therapy and counseling for sex problems. I still have them. I won't deny it. I masturbate 8-9 times a week, sometimes more. I love porn. And I have, for years, had an affection for younger girls. I know it's fucked up and probably sounds sick. But I don't make anyone do anything they don't want to. I don't try to persuade anyone into doing shit. I just figure whatever happens. And I've been thankful so far, to not have been caught or get in trouble. I don't want to be labeled 'that guy' you know?

But I want to share some of the twisted shit I've done. I don't know why. I guess to at least see if others are out there in the world that have the same thoughts I do, inhibitions, or the lustful things going through their head, especially when they are "old enough" to know better. But keep in mind, I have never done the "It'll be our secret" or "You can't tell anyone what we did or you'll get in trouble" or any of those fucked up stories you hear online or on TV that "If you tell someone, your family will pay" shit. I've never done that. Nor will I. I think it's just stupid. But if someone "old enough" wants to experiment, try something new, or do something? I don't see a problem with it, even if "society" doesn't acknowledge it or recognize it. People call it a bunch of different stupid things. To me? It's consensual. Just between someone very much older and younger. But you also don't realize, a lot of younger girls are into guys older, that either know shit, taboo, kinky, or just want to try something they've never done.

About 5 years ago, four of my daughter's friends spend the night. We were hanging out. They were watching movies. Having a good time. Doing their thing. And somehow, the conversation turned into truth and dare and joking. One of her friends who had mentioned having the hots for someone, got into the truth. So when it came around to me, I openly admitted when she asked "would you ever do something sexually with someone here?" I answered truthfully yes. She looked at me and said "who" and I came right out and said "you" - I think she thought I was bullshitting. But I wasn't. I knew in reality, it wasn't going to happen, because my own kid was there, her other friends were there, and all that shit. So we just kind of left it go and laughed.

Well, about an hour later, the girls had gone upstairs to bed. My daughter's one friend came back downstairs. We're talking about stuff. And she asked me. So I was honest and said yes. It was nervous talk, and kind of hesitant. She told me about something that had happened to her, but said that since the guy's dick was so little, it's not like she'd really "done anything" so I asked her some pretty blunt questions. She said answers, and I was curious if she enjoyed it, liked it, or even wanted to do more. She said "well I guess it's technically fucking, because he like got in me, and then yanked out and squirted. So even though he had like no dick, yeah, I guess we kinda did it" and I just laughed and said "well OK then". She asked me some questions. It started turning sexual. I just said "you sure you're OK with this conversation?" She laughed and said "I'm not all innocent and shit. I know things. But yeah. I'm curious about an older guy doing stuff". It got kind of verbal and graphic. I could tell by looking, she liked it.

Somehow, the conversation got around to sex. And we were talking about it. Actually talking about it. And she said "ever do it with someone my age?" I said no. She said "ever wanna?" I said truthfully? Yes. And she said "well that's cool." so I threw it back at her. And she said "older? How old?" I shrugged and said "I dunno. My age" she looked at me. Shrugged and said "Sure. I mean, I've kinda done it once. It's just sex. I mean, you're not going to like get married and shit. Right?" I laughed and said nope. And she says to me "why? Would you really?" I looked at her and said "well with someone younger, like you? Yeah. But if anyone found out, or someone knew, or suspected or tried to find out? I'd be busted, get fucked, and it'd be ugly" She said "true" and didn't say anything.

She got up. And I said "going to bed?" She looked at me, kind of nervous, and said "Well uh, no. Not really. I was going um, into the bathroom" so I said OK. And she looked and said "aren't you coming?" Now honest to God, I had no idea what she was referring to. But I guess I just went with it. I said "well uh sure". We went into the bathroom. She closed the door. Walked up against me, and said "would you kiss me?" I said "really? Like here?" and she said "well if you want to" I did. I really really did. I kissed her. And it felt really good. She was skinny, smaller chest, a really small ass, and about 100 pounds. Very small. I'm about 190, and in pretty good shape. A lot bigger than her. We stopped kissing after a few minutes, and I said "well that was nice. I like it" and she says "well do you want to do more?" I said "well uh yeah. I'd like to, you know, but what if someone finds out?" She just shrugged and said "well, make sure everyone is sleeping. Don't let nobody find out" so I went up. They were all in bed. I went downstairs. Closed the bathroom door. And I said "uh, yeah, now what?" and she says "well, we can um, do whatever" so I started kissing her. I don't know what prompted me to do it, but I unbuttoned her jeans. Unzipped them. And I pulled them down. Really tight, so she helped me. She got them around her ankles, and I kind of helped her out of them. She reached down and said "you can take those off too?" so I did. I was in my underwear. She had on panties and a tshirt. She took it off, and I was looking at her really small boobs. Probably at most, 32 C cup. Not big at all. I started getting hard.

We started kissing, and she said "you'd really you know?" I said "well, I don't wanna get in trouble. But yes, I mean, I would" and she said "well OK". She reached down and pulled her underwear off. I looked down, and saw brown pussy hair. I got harder. She said "well you can take yours off too" and I did. My dick was straight out. She just looked and said wow. She touched it. It jerked. She kind of laughed and said "touchy huh?" I laughed and said "well uh yeah".

I said "well uh, what now?" and she said to me "well, we can do whatever you want". I had her against the wall, and we were kissing really heavily. I ended up getting her on the bathroom floor, and I was kissing on her. I stated kissing her neck. She was moaning, so I kept moving, and kissing on her little boobs. I started kissing on her flat stomach, and down her legs. I went between her legs, and I heard her say "what are you doing?" I just said "Just lay there. It'll feel good" and I ate her. I started slowly, I heard her say "oh wow. That feels real good" and I kept going and licking her. I was fingering her, and licking her, and I heard her say "I'm gonna have an orgasm" and she did. I kept going. She had one. Then I stopped. Moved up. She was laying there breathing really heavy. And she said "wow. That was really awesome". I said "want me to do more?" and she says "oh yes" I laughed. And went down and ate her again. I made her cum again. She was gasping and breathing really heavy. When I got done, she was sitting up against the vanity. I started kissing on her. And she said "I taste pretty good" and we both laughed.

I said "well yeah, you do taste good" and she said to me with a straight face "well you can have sex with me now if you want" I looked at her and said "is that what you want?" and she said "yes. I actually really do" and I said "well uh" and she said "what's the matter?" I said "well I can't you know, cum inside you" and she says to me with a shrug "why not? Mom got me on bc about 2 years ago. I've been on it since" and I said "yeah. Well ok. but you uh, said one guy like didn't quite do it" and she said "well no, not in me, but uh yeah, I'm on it, so I guess I'm not sure if you want or don't" I wasn't sure what to do.

I had her down on the floor, and I spread her legs. I pushed. It went about halfway up inside her. She was really really skinny, and I kept pushing. I couldn't quite get my whole dick inside her for a few minutes. I finally thrust, and I heard her go "oh god." and it went all the way in. I was looking down, and I saw my dick in and out of her. Watching me pump slowly and slowly. She was laying there, kind of moving her hips. And I said to her "well, I can keep going". I heard her gasp and she says to me "Yes. Sure. You can keep going"

I was going in and out, and I felt it building up. I knew that it was going to happen. I said "well I'm gonna do it. I mean, I can't hold back". I felt her hands up around my ass. She pushed me. Pulled against her. I gasped and went "oh godddd" and I felt it squirt. It was blowing out of my dick inside her. I saw her face watching me. I kept pushing. Pulsing. I couldn't stop gasping. I kept squirting. It was so fucking intense, I couldn't control myself and panting and gasping. It felt like eternity until I felt my dick starting to go limp.

I just kind of laid there half inside her, on top of her. And she was going "holy crap. That was seriously crazy" I just laughed and said "you think?" and she says to me "Uh yeah. I gotta I think get upstairs. I don't want nobody waking up". She stood up. She got some paper towel and some toilet paper, and wiped between her legs. The tissue was soaked with my cum. Seriously soaked. And I said "are you sure? You'll like be OK?" She smiled and said "I'll be OK> It's all good" She got herself dressed without a word. The next morning, when everyone was getting around and stuff, she came downstairs. I was in the kitchen. She came in and said to me quietly "that was nice last night. I mean, like really nice" I smiled and said "Yeah. It was. I mean, seriously". She just smiled back.

Before her mom came to get her, she came up to me once more, and said "Not to sound weird, but you know, I'd do it mmore if you want to" I said yeah. She'd come over off and on between boyfriends (she told me she wouldn't cheat) over the next two years. We've probably fucked at least 20-25 times. Even through the years, I can't tell you how many times I've masturbated, thinking about fucking her. Funny thing is? I still see her around and about. We talk off and on, run into each other regularly, and she's had boyfriends, was engaged at one time, and between those relationships, we've gotten together even though she's older, and have fucked intensely a number of times. She's honestly incredible sex, and I like her young tight pussy. I know we won't end up together or anything like that, but it's kind of dirty knowing that I've fucked someone like that, and not a goddamn person knows it.