There has never been a time when I've considered myself as any form of sexuality, not because I'd indulged or not indulged in kind of alternative sex, but because I always saw and still do view sex as just that, sex.
The tag I've put at the top of the confession, is for your perception of social sexual intergration and not my own. As I've already said I don't have a sexuality, I'm just me.

I'm married and happily so, but my marriage would be compromised if my wife knew what I'm about to confess. So I hide it here and express myself through this forum to conform in some way, and it's a way that gives me a chance to re live what happened three months ago.

Knowing my own body and its flexibility, I knew when watching a bedroom scene a socially immature lonely guy had sent to my computer at work, I'd also be able to do as the person was doing in the scene. The person in question was lay naked on his back with his legs over his head touching the bed behind him. His erect cock was wavering above his mouth, and then he took it into his mouth and began to give himself a blow job. At first I was going to turn the scene off, until I found I was asking myself if I could do the same. By the time the guy had sucked his cock to completion, I was seriously wondering if I should try it at home later. Walking out of work, the young guy who'd sent me the link smiled and asked me if I thought the video of him was good. It was only then I realised it actually was my youthful colleague. But it posed another question, why send it to me?

Karen my wife, works a late shift in every rotation of her shift pattern. So I knew I'd be on my own for at least four hours. All the way home I'd been asking myself why he'd sent me the video link and if I was going to try what he'd been doing to himself. And all the way home I told myself, no. The erection I got from thinking about it though changed my mind and as soon as I put my coat away and climbed the stairs to our bedroom, I knew I was going to at least try.

After showering I put a towel onto the bed, lay on my back and then lifted my legs over my head, letting them fall easilly behind me so my flaccid cock was inches from my face. It was a strange sight, but an erotic one and my cock had begun to get hard. There is no sizist in me. I know my cock is large, larger than average anyway, and I enjoy using it to fuck my wifes mouth, pussy and asshole. I'd never once before tasted my own cum or tried to orally pleasure myself, but looking at my nine inch cock growing in front of me, feeling it touch my left cheek, I knew I was going to suck on my own cock. The sensation of it passing in between my lips and on into my mouth was amazing. It was almost as if someone else was sucking me, but my cock was definitely in my mouth and I was sucking on it, the same as I knew I liked my wife to give me head.

Every time I bobbed my head upwards, I took more and more of my cock, until I was taking about four inches of it. The feelings I was giving myself were awsome. I was getting more of a thrill from actually being able to pleasure myself, than from the sensations flowing through my cock, but those sensations were growing, as was my cock. It was throbbing and pulsing like never before as my tongue, lips and mouth sucked hard on my own erection. Moving my right hand up to my ass, I did something I like my wife doing, I inserted a finger up my asshole and began to finger fuck myself as well as sucking on my dick. The feeling of having my asshole fingered and sucking on my own cock sent me and my cock over the edge a few minutes later. In a series of powerful shudders, my cock erupted and I came flooding my own mouth. My whole body was wracked by the orgasm I was having, but I knew I wanted one last thing from the experience I'd just given myself. Gulping down on my cock, I swallowed every last drop of my cum and totally loved the taste and feeling of it going down my throat.

Lay on my back, completely sexually satisfied, I thought about my collegaue and knew why he'd sent me the link. He'd wanted to include me in his world, he'd wanted me to know what it felt like to self fellatio. And he wanted to open the door to us maybe sharing our discovery.

Sat in my office the next day opening my internal mail, his message was simple. "Hope you had some fun, might want to try a double dipping next time eh?". I knew precisely what he meant and what he was implying. Sharing my bed with him the following week, was if anything an even more surreal experience. Both of us sucking our own cocks using each others bodies to support one another as we gave ourselves a blow job. Fucking him took the acceptance of my sexuality to a whole new level. His tight smooth young asshole was perfect for my cock as it enveloped itself around it. And I truely had a great time pounding him the way I guessed he'd wanted all along. But fucking him was just that, a hole to fuck and a willing recipient of the copious amounts of cum I dumped deep inside his rear hole after an hour of sex. It was the young man who told me to lead the way in how, where and the force in which I fucked him. It was a first for me to have someone totally let me call the sexual shots and I strangely enjoyed letting him have his subserviant way.

He's returned to my home when I've felt like emptying my balls on five more occassions. He knows he's a cum dump to me and I know he and his asshole can take more of a pounding than my wife can. But having said that, I still prefer to fuck my wife and have her peform sexually form me, the way I love her to do.
So am I Gay, Bisexual or as I see it, a Hetrosexual man who just likes to suck his own cock from time to time, and fuck one particular guys tight asshole as he calls me "Daddy".