When I was in the fourth grade I sucked my neighbors penis. He was in the sixth grade and he made me suck his penis if I wanted to be with him. I say made, because it was a condition for being at his house. Quite frankly I enjoyed sucking his penis, it made me feel good to please him and the sensation of his hard penis in my mouth was something I looked forward to.

Later in high school and in college I was a cock sucker, as they say. Before college I sucked off other kids, and particularly this one kid who was the high school jock, he was very dominant, and in addition to having his cock sucked he liked to have sex, I lost my virginity to him.

In college, maybe because I went to a city college, I gravitated more and more to older men who worked in the community around the school. My first older adult man was a barber who worked at this one off barber shop. How he knew I was a cock sucker remains a mystery, but he knew and he invited me into the back where they kept the supplies and offered me his cock, or more correctly took his cock out of his pants and told me to suck him. I did, it was also the fist time that I ejaculated in my pants while I was sucking him off.

After college I went on to work and under pressure from my family I hooked up with the daughter of one my mother's friends and got engaged and got married. For the next 25 years I stayed away from being engaged in sex with another man. I thought about it, and even dreamt about it, and fantasized about it with this man or that man, but did not act on my thoughts. Until last week.

I was on an audit of some equipment maintenance, that we have to do periodically, and I was accompanied by the clients chief mechanic. He was a loud South African, a large man. We were back in the storage room, and I was looking at some records, when he came up to me with his cock sticking out of his zipper, and his pockets turned inside out and told me to suck the elephant's trunk. His large cock stared at me, all my defenses crumbled and I took his cock in my mouth and I was lost in memories of times past and woke up to ejaculating in my pants.

I must have the word cock sucker across my forehead, he knew, he was right, and for the first time in 25 years I enjoyed sex again. The sad truth is that I love to suck cock, I love the feeling of a penis in my mouth, I love feeling it get hard, I love holding a hard penis in my hand and jacking and sucking until I feel him cum. Sex is also good, I need to find a man to try again.

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by Anonymous on Mar 19, 2015 at 1:49 PM

We are very much a like being pressured to have sex at an early age. So I identify with all your feeling about sex with men and have lost my virginity to one too. Also married and stay closeted all these years too. So why are you just coming out now? Did your sex life take a bad turn with your wife?
#1 You need to feel comfortable with who you are. #2 If you are a cock where except it and move on.
I feel the key point missing here is how are you and your wife doing? I came out years later too. Wish you luck take care.

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by Anonymous on Mar 27, 2015 at 6:54 AM

I'm a 56yo bisexual male who has never been to a gay bar or cruise area. I have a gay cousin who cuts me hair. We played around but not since high school. He knows I am bi and, occasionally when alone at his shop, we share experiences. I get more man sex than he does and its with jocks not sissies. I've never been to a gay bar, gay cruise area but get plenty of dude action in straight bars and traveling. I can look at a man and tell if he's interested and have other bi men who are the very same way. More than one time in straight bar on the road, I've made eyes contact only (never saying anything) and scored. A few years back I participated in one of those anonymous no words exchanged blows jobs in an isolated hotel bathroom. The next morning I had a meeting with a new client in an office building beside the hotel. When I walked into that CEOS's office, there set the anonymous married man from the night before whose dick I sucked and who sucked mine. We arranged a last minute lunch - in my hotel room.

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by Anonymous on Apr 2, 2015 at 1:22 AM

57 bi married guy here. I too was with guys early on. I to stopped after getting married.
But once a cocksucker always a cocksucker. After 30 years of being married I sucked a cock at the gym. I put my feelings away for years but I do enjoy sucking a cock a lot.

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