I saw my dad writing on this, so I started reading it. I think some of the stuff on here is really twisted and kind of fucked up and sick. But some of it is a bit weird and different, and it's kind of hot. I don't know why, but a lot of people are into family stuff, and into different things with relatives. It makes me want to post what I've seen, and ask questions about it.

I'm not really 18. I'm actually 15. I might end up with a lot of weird creepy guys that respond, but I guess I'll just see what happens.

I'm still a virgin. and no, I don't plan to change that anytime soon. I'm in high school, and I've heard my friends talk about the lame guys they hang out with, and I know a lot of them have already fucked guys. Not me. I guess the reason is, I haven't found anyone I really like enough to go that far with. I've kissed a guys guys but that's about it.

Now the thing is, I know my dad does weird shit at night. I've heard him. So last week one night, I went down the stairs, to see. And I looked around the corner from the stairway across our living room, and I see him sitting at his computer. I wasn't sure what was going on, but then as my eyes got better with the dark, I realized that holy shit, he was jerking off. I'm not sure what he was watching or what was going on, but I could see it.

I heard him make noises, and yeah, I've seen enough porn to know what guys are doing when they get off. And I swear to God I just saw and heard him get himself off. It probably sounds kind of screwed up, but no, it wasn't gross. It was just different. I'm not sure why I thought about it, but like two days later, I was up in bed, and I went down again. And I saw him doing it again. This time I did it on purpose. He was doing whatever it was, and I walked into the living room and said "hey, what's going on?" He jerked back and I heard him say something like UH, what are you doing down here.

When I went over closer, I saw he was moving around real quick, and I saw a towel sitting on his lap, and his shorts were yanked up and kind of lopsided. So I just asked him what he was doing. And I saw the porn on the computer screen. He kind of stuttered, and he says to me "uh yeah, well uh" and I just laughed. I said to him dude, I've seen porn before, it's not a big deal. That kind of stopped him and he said really? I said yes. I'd watched with Kenzie and a couple other friends. I'd seen it with Lindsay, and I'd seen it with Stephanie too. He just kind of laughed.

I'd never even been so bold, even though we talk and joke sex, boobs and stuff like that, but came right out and said were you doing shit? He says what shit? And I said like jerking it or something? His face was all red. And he said to me uh well uh why? And I just laughed and said I got you. He just sat there with an embarrassed look on his face, and didn't say anything.

I shocked him. I mean, like really shocked him totally, and I said "well, if you wanna finish, it won't bug me" and he looked at me and said "excuse me?" I just shrugged and said sure. Have at it. He looked at me and said "I'm so not going to do that with my kid in the room" and I just said why not? I said it's not like we're DOING anything. I mean, that might be kind of freaky and gross and weird and stuff, but I mean, it's just you doing what you're doing" - He looked at me speechless. And he said "I can't" - I just shrugged and said well OK.

As I got up off the couch, he suddenly said "you're serious?" and I was. I don't know why. I mean, he's my dad and all, but I'd never seen a guy do that. Except on porn. Like not even in person. So I just said well I guess. I mean, It's not a big deal. I guess I've never seen it. Don't know what its like when you know, a guy does his thing. So I guess I was curious is all.

He looked and me, and said "you know you can't tell your mom? I mean, if you get mad at me, or we get into an argument or fight or something? Or whatever? You like can't tell her. We'd end up in an ugly situation. I mean, this could really get out of hand" - I just looked at him and said I'm not gonna tell anyone. That would be weird, and how do you think MY FRIENDS would take it? Like knowing I watched my dad, you know jerk it? He just looked at me and said well uh ok yeah.

I was sitting on the couch. I saw him pull the porn up. He kind of looked at me out of the corner of his eye. And he starts the porn. Starts rubbing himself on the outside of his shorts. I'm watching quietly, not saying anything. And I see he's getting hard inside his shorts. He's still rubbing. I watch as he pulls the towel over. And I don't know why, but I got kind of freaked for a second, and felt really scared. And I see him rubbing it even harder. And I look and see it's like really huge.

He kind of stares for a second. Leans back, and he pulls it out of his shorts. I looked at it, and he's kind of staring at me out of the corner of his eye. It was kinda weird. Just sitting there. He gets this towel, and he's watching the porn, rubbing his thing, and he keeps going. Pulls his shorts farther down, and then starts moving his hands up and down on himself.

He's got the towel around him, pulls it off, and he's got his thing pointing at it. Watching the porn. I just sat there watching him, and a couple of minutes later, I see him starting to shake a little. Then he like shudders. And I hear him go "uh" and he starts squirting it into the towel. I watch it come out of the end of him, and it's squirting and squirting. And I'm talking a LOT. I had no idea that it was like that, because porn doesn't show it.

I bet it went on for like 30 seconds. It kept squirting out, look white loads of stuff. And when he was done, he leaned back, gasping and panting and breathing kind of heavy. I looked, and I saw his thing had gotten really soft. He wiped himself off, and then pulled his shorts up and sat back.

I didn't know what to say. He kind of looks at me, and said "well uh" and I just said "holy crap. That's like intense. I'd never seen that. I mean, porn doesn't show a guy doing his thing". And he just smiled and said "Yeah, it doesn't. You don't typically even see the guy doing it. You just watch his face and body"

I had to ask. So I asked him what it felt like. And he explained it. Felt kind of weird with my dad telling me what it felt like to get himself off and all. But when he got done, I said to him "Do guys do that when they're doing it with chicks too?" and he said "that much? well, I can't speak for other guys, but I know I do"

Yeah. I watched my dad jerk himself.