I am in a demented and sick situation. My husband travels overseas a lot. Admitedly, we did some wild things when we were young, so I wasn't very surprised to find out that while overseas, he visits prostitutes. Instead of reacting as I should have, I got turned on by it. I began encouraging him to visit brothels and film the experiences, which he does. For some reason it's just a huge turn on for me to watch him ride some stupid whore.

Inevetiably we degenerated more and more. He ended up in Asia having sex with a prostitute that was obviously not of legal age in the country where we live. Did I put my foot down? No. I won't even try to justify it because I can't.

So it is my fault that my husband is now having sex with my daughter. (Not his daughter) At first they were sneaky about it, but gradually it became more obvious. We have never discussed it, and it's sort of an open secret in the house. I know it's wrong, but I also know it would ruin all our lives if anyone found out. My daughter is very obviously complicit in the whole thing. Sometimes she will come to our room at night and ask him to come and see her for a few minutes. Her room is next to ours and I hear them at it.

She is fifteen. I think back to when I was that age and know that if I'd had a hot stepdad, I'd have fantasized about it. She's not fantasizing --- she's actually living the reality. I know how wrong it is, but it turns me on when I hear them.