I deal with a very serious problem. It isn't something to even laugh about. I work a normal job, live a normal life, have a normal family, and do what most normal people do. Except for one small problem. I deal with an overwhelming physical sexual attraction to young girls. I have struggled with it for 10 years. All three of my daughters have had teenage friends. And I am not hesitant to admit, through the last 10 years, I have slept with more than 3/4 of them at different times. Some on truth and dare, some on spontaneous flirting, and some we have mutually pursued it over a period of time. I know it sounds dirty, gross, nasty, taboo, perverted or whatever. But I've been told I look mid 30's. My personality is very outgoing, funny, off the wall, and dirty. And I won't lie, when I say that I do openly flirt with girls when they flirt back, and when they make sarcastic comments or even sexual innuendos.

The problem is, I have crossed lines that I know aren't right. I have taken risks that I know aren't smart, considering a guy my age, the future I would risk, and the life I would no longer have if I were caught. But it hasn't prevented me from taking those steps, and having sexual relations with various girls of various ages.

I would like to say I feel guilty, and I am ashamed for having done some of what I have, but it is very difficult. When I see various teenage girls in tight jeans, I see their stomach, I see a flash of skin, their nice little petite ass, small thighs, or even their developing boobs, I can't help but fantasize about having sex. It happens all the time. And I mean all the time.

Last weekend, my daughter's friend Madison was spending the night. She is a perfect example. She has a nice set of developing round boobs, a smaller ass, probably wears size 3 jeans, and I have seen her stomach on occasion wearing half shirts. When I've seen her little teenage belly button, I feel my groin tingling. I know that it is sickening sounding, and probably gross, but I cannot help it. I really can't. There are times when I have seen Madison bend over, and I have fantasized about pulling her pajama bottoms down, sliding my hard thrusting cock deep inside her cute little pussy, and feeling my sperm empty inside her. It's wrong. But I struggle. I can't control it.

She was in the den, and my daughter was sleeping. Our conversation started out joking, and flirting, and then got seriously heavy with sexual tension. And for the first time I have ever done it, when she'd asked me if I'd do a chick her age, I looked at her and said that if she was available, I'd do things to her that she's probably never experienced. She just laughed and said really? Even though I'm 14?

I just looked at her developing boobs inside her tank top, stared at her bikini bottoms, and glanced at her petite thighs, and small round ass, and said yes. I told her that if she wouldn't rat me out, and she wouldn't say anything to bust me, I'd get her off in more ways than she knew possible. She looked at me and said pretty blunt aren't you? And I just shrugged and said I guess. And I said that if she was freaked out, I'm sure she would have told me.

When she stood up, I stood up, and said well you should go to bed. And it's been nice talking to you. She looked at me and said no. She said that she wasn't kidding. She reached down and she stripped off her bikini shorts and pulled her shirt and camisole off. She stood there in a bra and her little white panties, and said I'm not a virgin. I've never done it with an older guy, but if you were serious, it'd go nowhere outside of here.

Lord help me, I fucked her. I licked between her legs. I kissed her little thighs. I sucked on her little nipples. I cupped her firm small round boobs. And when we talked about it, she told me she wasn't on anything, so I had to be really careful. I entered her slowly, and I couldn't barely breath. I slid in slowly, feeling her patch of pussy hair rub against my balls, and slowly scratch my dick. It was heaven. I'm not kidding.

I pulled out. And I slowly entered her again. I laid there on top of her, kissing her little mouth, with my dick inside her. And she said to me "God. That's big. I mean really big".

She was on her back, and it lasted about 10 minutes. I was pushing and pulling, and pushing more, and I felt it. I pulled out just in time, and I came. I squirted it all over her stomach and all over her pussy hair. We just kind of laid there when I was done, and she said wow. I said what. And she said that it was pretty awesome.

I felt like a dirty old fucking man. When she got up and put on her shorts and her camisole and her pajama bottoms, she just kind of looked back and went upstairs without a word.

I've done so much dirty shit, but for whatever reason, the opportunity keeps coming up to fuck different girls, and honest to God I can't say no. I just can't do it. Physically I love getting off, and I love feeling myself cum. And I love watching the girls faces, regardless of age, when I have my dick inside them.