I generally like women.. I date them, i have sex with them and i mostly like it.
But sometimes, when i see a manly guy who has perfect, big cock, i want to shave, put on a little make-up and some cute sexy panties and maybe stockings.. And i want to kneel in front of him, pull his pants down, smile when hes half-hard beautiful cock jumps out. Then i want to look at it, touch it, kiss it, rub it against my face and adore it. Then i want to put it in my mouth, deep, pull it out again and then start sucking this perfect looking cock like there's no tomorrow.
When im done sucking and his big, beautiful rock-hard cock is pointing at my face, i would get on the bed, on all fours and point my tight and saved little ass towards him.. Look over my shoulder, bite my lip and smile, shake my ass, giving him a signal that im waiting for him there, on all fours, like a cat during its breeding season, hungry for that godly cock. I want him to fuck me.. Hard.
I discovered that side of me years ago when some dude jacked off to me talking dirty to him online on cam. His cock was beautiful, i loved watching him stroking it while i was telling him what i would do with it. After that i started watching different kind of porn i usually did. I jerked off to really feminine guys, wearing women clothes, getting fucked by some big-dicked fella. I often paused the video during close up scene so that i could take a good look at beautiful cock, fantasize about it.
I don't tell my friends or family about my other side, i keep it a secret. Out there im still that guy who they have all known. But behind the closed doors, when im feeling horny, i love riding dildo and fantasize. I love taking care of my looks, keep myself feminine, completely shaved and clean, keep my body petite and my little ass soft and tight. Im quite short and thin, so that's a plus.
I only really had sex with another man once, some months ago, with this guy i met online. I was getting tired of fantasizing, i wanted to try a real thing, to get fucked. So i searched for someone who might be up to it, and who lives far from my friends and family. Found this guy, in his forties, he had an average body but his cock.. Oh god, it was perfect, it was 7 to 8 inches long, thick but not too thick, straight as an arrow, it looked perfect. I knew i want it. So i talked to him, he was looking for a bottom to fuck, it was a perfect match. We set down some rules and we met at a cheap motel, relatively far from home. When i arrived, he wasn't there yet, i told him before we met up that i need to look feminine when i was going to do this. So i had a little time to prepare. I put on thight and short red shirt, "Slut" written on it. I put on some lacy soft-blue panties, black colored tight shorts on them, word "shorts" was fitting name for them. Then i pulled on striped red-black colored knee socks (which i personally find really hot). I put on some make-up, not too much but enough, a little bit of red lipstick. I did my hair, which is currently and then cut like one of those one side short and other side long haircuts, i saw it on a cute girl once and thought i could rock that haircut and it kinda keeps me more feminine without too much suspicions from friends and family, the long side reaches to my ear, other side is simply really short. So i combed it to one side and made it look perfect. After all was done i checked myself out, i looked hot, really girly.
Then after a little wait he arrived, we drank some wine, changed a few words, mostly about him being amazed how good i look. After chitchat, the good part arrived, we got down to business. He sat on bed and popped out his glorious cock, it looked even better up close. After seeing his big male member, i turned all my attention on it, i got really horny. I played with it, kissed and sucked it, i loved it. After that he stood up and i crawled on the bed and pointed my ass up, he took me from behind and i was loving it, it wasn't as magical as i fantasized but it was awesome and it was real. I liked watching girly version of me getting fucked hard doggystyle from the mirror, my balls and half-hard cock bounching. At the and he pulled out and shot his load all over my back, and there was alot of it.
After all was said and done, we didn't talk much, i cleaned up, changed and then went home. Told my dad that i was at friends place, he nodded and mumbled something, then i quickly sneaked past him to my room. Later as i was in my bed, staring at the white ceiling, i couldn't help but smirk a little, i enjoyed it.. Alot.