I am not going to write the long version of how I got to this point in my life but a shorter version. Well I was playing with friends when I was 12 and sucked my first cock then. Did this off and on for a couple years until I got interested in girls then quit sucking cock. Once I went into the service I got married had a couple kids, got divorced and had a few girlfriends up to about 7 years ago. In between girlfriends when I was horny I would look for guys that wanted sucked off. Did this a few times at adult book stores and gay cruising spots.
During this time I would consider myself Bi but when I split up with my last girlfriend 7 yrs ago I started just looking for guys. I purchased some dildos and started practicing deep throating them in sizes of guys that I have sucked off. Then I found a 10 inch dildo that was about 2 inched thick and practiced deep throating it just in case I came across a guy that would possibly be that long (not as common as some would think or believe)but I wanted to be ready.
One day I hooked up with a guy that really just wanted to be sucked on not wanting to return the favor ( which I am fine with) We clicked and it started to become a regular thing. He would come over or call for me to meet him some place and suck him off. One day he calls and says to meet him and that he had a surprise for me when I got there. I met with him and he handed me a pair of lace panties and asked me to wear them. I put them on and could not believe how they felt and it seemed to change my attitude and made me feel submissive and fem.
After that he would buy me new panties almost every time we hooked up. Then one day he said my ass looked really good in the new panties and he wanted to fuck me. Well aside from practicing my deep throating I also had a couple dildos I practiced fucking myself with so I was more then willing being he was only about 6 1/2 inches and average thickness. That was the start of a whole new life for me. He pulled the thong string aside and I got fucked for the first time by a real cock and I feel in love with the way it felt and how submissive and fem it made me feel. Well he started fucking me on a regular bases and it got to the point I could cum without even being touched (not all the time but there were those days I did).
Well then it got to the point that the only underwear I was wearing was panties and if any guy never tried them they should because they feel so much lighter and comfortable then men's underwear. Any ways about 6 yrs ago I burned all my male underwear and went strictly women's panties and never looked back. Granted I do not dress fully with make up and wigs and such but I am always in panties. About 5 yrs ago I am not sure why but I bought a pair of women's low rise jeans and even thou I was 48 at the time I am somewhat fit with no pot belly, the jeans looked and felt better because they are lighter and have some stretch to them. I now own more women's jeans then men's. It was one day I was at the local store and (never giving it a thought) I had a guy walk by me while I was getting something off the bottom shelf and as he walked by made a comment about cute panties. I looked up at him and I put my hand behind me and realized my lace top panties were above my jeans and were showing. I stood up quickly and could feel myself turning red. I quickly got the rest of my things and got out of the store.
When I got to my car I set there a minute and noticed I was rock hard and the thought of knowing someone seen my panties really turned me on. So from that point on I now wear low rise jeans mostly and make sure my shirt sits at the waist line so if I bend over or reach up my whales tail or lace trim can be seen by anyone that looks and when they can't see the tops of them I enjoy it when the panty line is visible. I was told by one hook up that my panties would look even better if I was smooth. I thought about it for awhile and decided to try it. The feeling of being smooth down there was amazing and I started to shave my whole body smooth. At first just in the colder months when I could wear jeans but that all changed about 3 yrs ago I decided to keep my body shaved smooth from head to toe and the only hair on my body is my eyebrows. It feels really nice being in shorts with smooth legs and I no longer care what others think and yes I get some strange looks but no one has ever said anything directly to me.
I will admit it is hard to find guys that like guys like me but other then wearing panties and women's low rise (and sometimes tight skinny jeans) I am a normal (hate this phase)straight acting guy next door type that doesn't act fem and now at 54 I am always horny ( like a teenager) and am always looking for a guy that loves to be pleased. I actually truly enjoy my fem side and being used by real men that just want to get off. I would like to find a guy for a ltr but until then I will play the field and always ready to suck a cock or bend over. I in the past few years have finally admitted to myself that I am a gay sissy total bottom and love it.