I just caught my 11 year old daughter masturbating with a vibrator and I have no idea where she got it from. She was making a racket in her bedroom and I thought she was playing her video games when she should have been asleep since tonight is a school night. When I heard the noise I went to her room to tell her to quit the game and go to bed. But when I opened the door to her room she was sitting naked on her bed naked leaning against some pillows and had her laptop on a pillow on her belly and she was just going at it with the vibrator which was a little bigger than my middle finger and she got it most of the way in herself. She was obviously in the middle of an orgasm because when I stormed in to find out WTF she was doing she completely ignored me for the last five seconds of her orgasm then when reality hit her she went from being on top of her bedding to being under her bedding in a tenth of a second and closed her lap top. I scolded her for looking porn, which she obviously was and confiscated both the laptop and the vibrator. Then I shut off her light, went down the hall and flipped the breaker to her room and took the laptop and vibrator into my own bedroom to investigate.

I have never had sexual thoughts about my daughter until tonight. I haven't seen her naked since she was about three. Her Mom died of cancer three years ago. Ordinarily I would just turn this matter over to her and let her deal with it but she isn't here any more and I am just don't know what to do. And part of the problem is that having caught her like that I have a boner and I'm starting to have thoughts about my daughter that I really don't want to have. As soon as I got back to my room and locked the door I took the vibrator to my nose and inhaled her smell. It was like a not yet ripened version of her mother's aroma. It reminded me of the way her mother smelled when her mother and I were in high school and I was first trying to get her to let me eat her out. I was a Junior and she was a freshman, two years age difference, and she was the pretties girl in the 9th grade, or the whole school for that matter. We dated for about five years before we got married. The smell of my daughter's essence on the vibrator is what got me started tonight. In five minutes after smelling her and having watched her frig herself to her last few seconds of orgasm I started to fantasize about reliving some of the things I did with my wife, with my daughter. But I set the vibrator down on my night stand and opened up her laptop to see what would inspire an 11 year old pure innocent little virgin to r*pe herself with a finger size vibrator. I went to the website she was looking at and to the page and it was a website that lets anyone view free porn videos. I started up the video and I could not believe my eyes. There was a girl, slender, short, flat chested in pigtails who looked like she was around my daughter's age. She was naked, tied up and two adult men were whipping her with a wire whip in her bleeding vagina. The girl was thrashing about screaming like she was being skinned alive. The video was half an hour long and was about half way through which means my innocent little baby daughter was wildly frigging herself to an orgasm while watching another eleven year old girl tied up naked getting the flesh whipped off her pubic mound. My pure baby was getting off on watching a little girl being tortured and I didn't know if she was living vicariously through the girl imagining it was her getting whipped on her pussy or if she was having sadistic lesbian fantasies imagining herself doing the whipping.

So I watched the video through while I jerked off imagining my daughter sucking my cock while I whipped her pussy to a bloody mess.

I feel a little guilty about getting turned on seeing my daughter do that and jerking off to the mental image but not a lot guilty. It's not like I sought out the situation. I simply reacted to it. Yes I want to fuck her badly now and I would love to whip her but she is my daughter and she's only a little girl and I don't want to actually harm her. My guilt over viewing the naked little girl getting her pussy whipped was blotted out a lot when at the very end of the video they interviews the girl who while her eyes were still red from crying, she was now smiling and saying she had a blast and wanted to do it again soon and the last thing she did was hold up her driver's license to show she just turned 18. OK so I wasn't watching bizarre c********n after all.

Now I just got to figure out what to do about my daughter. I don't want to be the prude intolerant father who freaks out when his child masturbates. But I really am concerned about the particular category of porn she seems to be watching and the kind of fantasies she is having. I don't want to have a knock on the door one day and it's the police telling me my daughter was whipped to death and they found her with a smile on her dead face. I am considering introducing corporal punishment into my menu of fatherly discipline which until now has been limited to reduced privileges and grounding and temporarily taking away electronics. But a part of me wants to do that just to get off on torturing my daughter in a legitimate way. Another part of me wants to take the door of it's hinges and restrict her internet usage to what she can do in front of me. But I don't think either is the best solution. I sure would welcome suggestions.






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by Anonymous on Apr 22, 2015 at 11:09 PM

It may sound seriously screwed up, but I know of others who are in that same position. My step daughter had done things like that, and I would watch her at times, knowing what she was doing was "wrong" but I wasn't going to be that prude. In truth? I would let your daughter act it out. Chances are, it's all that it's going to be. She won't go through with it, or allow someone else to do that, but let me ask you an honest question. What if it's possible she's fantasizing about it being you that does that, and thus the reason she let you "catch her" - wondering if maybe you saw her doing that, sexually you would be interested in doing it?

I have put myself into positions where sexually I have done things that aren't appropriate or right, but at the same times, the girls put themselves there to let me see what they were doing. In truth? I'd let her continue doing it. See how far she takes it. And most important, see if she "lets" you see her doing it? She might be trying to act out in a way you don't understand.

She might actually want you to act on it, and see if you'd do it to her, knowing you are watching her, or she's "letting" you catch her. Ever think about it that way?

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by Anonymous on Apr 23, 2015 at 12:06 AM

Your both not looking at it correctly. She is eleven, that's very young. You may not want to hear this but she needs to be kept from porn, and you should talk to her about it. DO NOT LET YOUR SEXUAL SIDE TAKE OVER YOU FATHER DUTIES, NO MATTER WHAT IT IS WRONG TO FEEL THAT WAY! JUST REMEMBER IT IS WRONG FOR YOU TO RELISH IN THAT THOUGHT PATTERN. IF YOU HURT HER YOU'LL RUIN HER FOR LIFE. DO THE RIGHT THING JUST TALK TO HER AND GET ON THE SAME PAGE. SHE NEEDA A FATHER NOT A SEXUAL FRIEND. DON'T LET HER CONTROL WITHOUT A TALK. BECAUSE SHE WILL GET WORSE. PLEASE DON'T ACT ON THIS. I'VE BEEN THERE IT'S ALL A FACADE, FAKE FEELINGS AND EMOTION'S to hide the pain of your loss. Getting cl lose to your child doesn't have to be sexually. Find another way, because if you act out she'll hate you and that will be extremely traumatic, especially after losin her mother. Stop the cycle now. She may be using sex as a way out of the pain of losing her mother. Please don't hurt her, she needs you. Use this to be closer to her. And build up your relationship. Often times we as men feel sex is a way to connect to our children after a traumatic experience. But it will hurt her for life. Find a different way to connect, please. She loves you don't hurt your baby!!! It's a dillusion a lie, trust me. I struggled for a while with it and it went away, because it's a lie. That's not what she wants. She just wants her daddy. And if you have watched c********n, stop watching it now, because it only worsens it. It's hard but you have too. She will hate you if you ever try anything, I promise you. Just remember she is your baby, your child, and you will ruin her life if you ever do that. Just imagine her mother watching you do that. Best thing is to notice that feeling and breathe through that feeling, that's a start. It will slowly disapate. I promise

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