I'm a 22-year-old straight male. That's how I identify anyway. Here I list some of my weirder quirks, which, for the most part, are only valid within the confines of my imagination, as opposed to real life:

1) I'm attracted to penises. I get jealous when I watch blowjob scenes in porn. That's part of the turn-on for me, I wish I could join in and taste the girl's saliva on the guy's cock. Looking at the guy's face is a turn-off for me though, unless he's somewhat less masculine. I might be able to get on board with a shy, fresh-faced emo-looking dude. But the actual body does it for me more. I desire penises. I want to suck them, taste cum, tongue the guy's ass, finger him, suck my fingers afterwards, even fuck him and cum inside him. But in the real world, I've never, ever been attracted to a real guy I've met, and so I don't identify as being bi. I AM most definitely attracted to real women, however, and so I identify as straight with some unusual turn-ons. I love the idea of rimjobs, prostate play etc. I'd love to get fingered by a girl, or fucked in the ass. Sometimes I imagine being fucked in the ass by a guy, and overpowered. The point remains, though, that this never really applies to real life. I just don't have that attraction with real guys. Guys in porn and in my imagination though can do it, but usually because I'm emphasizing the body over the face.

2) Rape fantasies, if they can be called that, do it for me. Before bed, I often let myself drift into an imaginative world in which I chase down a clothed girl and abuse her. Slap her, spit on her, finger her throat until she gags, tear off her clothes, force her to lick my ass, have my way with her. Again, this is something that exists only in the realm of my sexual imagination. I would never do such a thing in real life, that would certainly NOT do it for me. But as far as fantasy is concerned, I love it. I also love the idea of being tied up and r**ed by a girl or several girls, with fingers, strap ons etc., until I cum. And the idea of forcing a guy to cum and to keep going after orgasm to torture him does it for me too.

3) Clothing does it for me, in weird ways. I love girls in stockings. I love girls in t-shirts and nothing more. I love the idea of forcing a clothed girl to deepthroat and cumming in her mouth, on her face, in her hair, on her clothes. I love the idea of spitting in her face and smearing my saliva into her hair and make-up.

4) I love watching young girls fuck old men. Something about that seems really dirty. I love watching them make them cum, suck their dicks, lick their asses, finger them.

5) Teenage boys and girls. I'd love to suck and fuck a young teenage boy against his will, make him cum, swallow. I'd love to fuck a teenage girl, force her to take me, a comparatively older man. I think this fantasy stems from a desire to feel more dominant, powerful, superior and in control. The societal taboo of fucking a younger girl does it for me too.

6) Pee. Again, an abusive fantasy. But I'd also love to drink a girl's pee. Fluid exchange. Basic sexual instinct.

7) This one's deep and psychological. In my most heightened moments, such as during an intense orgasm, I have a strong desire to suck up and absorb everything that the person I'm thinking of is. To swallow their soul, in a way. To take everything that they are for myself.


So I guess my inner fantasies lean towards the abusive side, though this is something that I'll always keep to my own personal dream world. I have a nice girlfriend and I'm perfectly satisfied with regular sex, and I'll never share this stuff with her because I don't feel like I need to. But it feels good to share this and to just be honest about what I feel and think about in my more personal sexual moments. I suppose I have an innate desire to be superior, an aggressive kind of sexuality that wants to completely destroy and dishevel the person I'm with, to taste them in every way, to make them taste me in every way, and to utterly consume them.