I'm told I was 2 when my parents adopted me and just recently found out who my birth mother is. Its obvious she doesn't want a relationship with me. I have have no idea who my real father is but he must be a white man as my birth mother is Afro American. I have lived and still live a very secluded life in a rural area of Texas. My adoptive parents, Helen and Randall, have been both good and abusive with me and still are today still treating me as a child. I always refered to her as mom but Randall always insisted I call him Rann. I am not at all an attractive girl since I have a wide nose and a cleft lip and am very short. My body is ok and I have a pretty nice figure in general. I live on a small ranch and basically only have one real friend who I see only once or twice a week. The rest of the time I do chores now since I've been out of school for 4 years. Mom is good to me most of the time but she must know the way Rann has been treating me for many years and I think punishes me for it. Years ago I tried to tell her things he did to me but she just didn't want to hear it and even today ignores what is going on. I am afraid of Rann and believe mom is also because I have seen him hitting her masny times over the years. As long as I can remember not only Rann but mom would not hesitate to spank me and it was common for me to be naked when they did or at least on my bare behind. I just turned 22 and still don't know what actual privacy is and am still treated like a 10 or 12 year old kid. Rann used to bathe me up until I was about 12 or 13 which was embarrassing for a short time. He also would inspect my body once or twice a week since as far back as when I was about 7, always right before bedtime. I think the first time he masturbated me I was 11 or 12 and he continues doing it today along with other things. I think I just got used to it and am so used to him seeing me naked it don't bother me anymore.

I know mom knows but she never says anything to me or Rann or asks any questions. Even when I was little Rann always went around with nothing on under his bathrobe and often was totally naked in front of me. I was so young at that time I think I just got used to seeing him that way. Aside from a while during puberty I think I also got so used to him seeing me naked it no longer bothered me. Both of them still spank me at times but for years now mom spanks me more often and I think she does to punish me for how I submit to Rann. He just comes into my room whenever he wants telling me to take off my bed clothes because he wants to inspect my body, never telling me why. I was between 11 and 12 when he first masturbated me and began teaching me how to do it myself. It slowly became a combination of him doing it or just watching me masturbate myself. At first he at least had a bathrobe or pj's on but then he would come in naked mfrom then on. That when he would also masturbate as he was watching me. I think I was about 15 the first time he had me jerk him off and it became more often as time went by. Sometimes during the day he would call me into the barn and say he needed to be relieved which ment he wanted me to masturbate him and still does now. I went to school then and never told anyone about this even though I easily could have. Whenever he comes in my room at night he always says the same thing, that he came in to "inspect my body" which I'm well aware of what he means.

It was about a week after my 18th birthday the first time he had me perform oral sex on him and each time after that I was taught something new. He began giving me oral sex also and withing a few weeks was the first time we had intercouse. Since I was 18 he is in my room at least 3 nights a week having some type of sex with me and as bad as this may seem I look forward to it. He has me totally under his control but I never resist and allow him to do whatever pleases him. He insists I shave my pubic hair and has shaved me many times himself. He has also gotten me accustom to anal sex which at first I dispised but have gotten comfortable with it now. I have never had a boyfriend and none have ever even looked at me twice. I don't know how long this will continue but I have no thoughts of leaving here even though mom has gotton more mean to me than years ago. She just spanked me badly a few days ago and I really think she does it because she knows what Rann is doing with me, but afraid to say anything to him. She never even says anything when he is naked downstairs walking around like that in front of both of us. My friend Vera is here every Saturday but I never have told her. I go to her house almost every Sunday and although I do tell her I masturbate I never say anything about Rann. I know how awful all this sounds but I think I became so used to all of this it never had a bad affect on me. I like working the ranch and enjoy horseback riding and feeding the animals. I don't even mind the chores around the house. I'm not sure though how mom feels about me anymore because when Rann comes in my room at night he is always naked and she must know he is. Sometimes he only wants to watch me masturbate and while I do he often has me masturbate him or does it himself. He is still mean to me sometimes but is nice to me most of the time. Mom says things sometime about me moving out or getting a job but I just tell her I like working here even though Rann only gives me an allowance every week. I don't know how things will work out but for now I'm just happy here.