Straight Male / 48
I have been married 3 times,
the first was a total dud and broke my heart. The second was young and all so beautiful like the first, but she would rarely turn me down for sex. All thought our sex life was pure mechanical and self serving, we had no passion. The love i think was one sided. She loved me but I think as a replacement for the dad she did not have. Then the truth came out, she was a closet lesbian. She could be with me, and still have her Gf's come by.
That was part of her decision to never have children with me or anyone else.
We divorced after a big disagreements and I then saw her heart break as I found some one else. A girl younger than she. She was not tall like her, but all so pretty. She had large breast and nice curvy body. Long blond hair and wow, she was sexual. She fell for me like falling off a cliff. We were married 5 years later and she gave me two wonderful children. BUT, I still had dreams of my ex wife for some reason.
I think I am not looking back to my ex wife as mush as my life then. I was healthy and all so active. I injured my back and it was and is bad. I LOVE my wife and would not trade her for both of my ex's at the same time. I am just a bit confused as to the dreams of my ex. I think posting this here helped me work this out in my own mind.
I feel better now about my self
the first was a total dud and broke my heart. The second was young and all so beautiful like the first, but she would rarely turn me down for sex. All thought our sex life was pure mechanical and self serving, we had no passion. The love i think was one sided. She loved me but I think as a replacement for the dad she did not have. Then the truth came out, she was a closet lesbian. She could be with me, and still have her Gf's come by.
That was part of her decision to never have children with me or anyone else.
We divorced after a big disagreements and I then saw her heart break as I found some one else. A girl younger than she. She was not tall like her, but all so pretty. She had large breast and nice curvy body. Long blond hair and wow, she was sexual. She fell for me like falling off a cliff. We were married 5 years later and she gave me two wonderful children. BUT, I still had dreams of my ex wife for some reason.
I think I am not looking back to my ex wife as mush as my life then. I was healthy and all so active. I injured my back and it was and is bad. I LOVE my wife and would not trade her for both of my ex's at the same time. I am just a bit confused as to the dreams of my ex. I think posting this here helped me work this out in my own mind.
I feel better now about my self
