Back in the early days of masturbation and orgasm, I was faced with a difficult problem. I love masturbating, but the orgasms were too intense for me. To the point where I lost control of my bladder. My carelessness had soaked the bed. A combination of pleasure and embarrassment. I tried again with a full bladder in the tub, and the orgasm was even more intense. My bladder was nearly empty before I could regain control.

Unfortunately, that sense of fun didn't last long, and I haven't been able to let loose like that since. Still, I wish I could lose that sense of control again. No matter how much I try, I can never replicate it.

Kind of embarrassing, I guess. More so that I keep trying it. I originally thought this is what female ejaculation was, but it couldn't be. I was peeing for far too long for it to be considered that. I don't know. Maybe I'm wrong or right. I just like the idea of losing control of myself during an orgasm.