This may not seem like much to a lot of people, but I have been having an issue lately. Before I get to that let me catch you up on some quick info about me. I am a white male, I am fit and at times been extremely toned because I love working out. I have an 8 inch cock that is very thick. I have been with many women of all types. I was married for 10 years and after being single for a few years I am about to get married again to a girl who loves sucking my cock almost more than I like receiving it. However, a few months ago my fiancée and I took some ecstasy and were rolling alone and having a good time. During the night I was rolling so hard that I had thick craving to suck some cock. She was rolling very hard and was cool with the idea. We invited a bisexual guy we know over and when he pulled out his 9 inch cock I immediately swallowed the whole thing. I fed on his cock for two hours with my fiancée, I even swallowed his cum. He went home and we have lived our life normally ever since.
Here lately though, I have had this craving to suck a big black cock. More than that I want him to force feed my mouth while saying things like "swallow that big n****r dick". I have even looked around on Craigslist and seen a few possibilities, but I have done nothing about it. I am kind of too ashamed and embarrassed to mention it to my fiancée, that one night when we were rolling was supposed to be a one time thing. Besides a lot of people do out of the ordinary things on ecstasy.
I still have not cheated on her or even talked to anyone else about it, but I cannot get the fantasy of some black guy deepthroating me out of my mind. Even as I write this my mouth is watering for that big black dick. I have been a straight guy all my life with no interest in men in any other way. I love my fiancée and I do not want to be with anyone else. Still though, I cannot seem to shake this feeling.