Straight Female / 18
Over the course of two years, I've grown a fascination with anal play.
It all started when I watched yaoi/shounen-ai (man on man anime) and I was not only curious but turned on by what I was watching. This eventually led to me watching gay porn. Strangely, I'm more turned on by two guys screwing around than I am with a guy screwing a girl.
With all the porn I watched around the time, I never once thought to play with my vag - it was always my butt I was thinking about. I read several online sources on how it felt, which gave me mixed views. Oftentimes while I showered afterwards, I would make sure to clean my rear great and once even pushed my rag further than usual - I immediately felt dirty and exited the shower.
Maybe a month or two after that, I decided that I should try to finger myself, as articles suggested with comfortable anal penetration - start off small and then go big. That day in the shower, I shoved my finger in my mouth and slowly pressed it inside my butt. It hurt like hell, however, I started thrusting. This soon transitioned from fingers to small, empty generic body wash bottles, to much larger bottles. Each time, I came more from it than I did with failed attempts to please myself from the front (then again, I am a virgin.... vaginally, so what would I know?).
The first time I inserted an object in my butt besides my finger, was an old lotion bottle I found in my bedroom. At first it hurt but gradually felt better with time. Afterwards, I wiped and found blood. Panicking, I found it was normal to bleed from (first time) anal stimulation.
From time to time, I have fun playing with my back door, especially after inserting water in myself to clean out the fecal matter. Once, I even fisted myself and plan on continuing. Additionally, I have this clear discharge that comes out whenever I fuck myself. At first, I thought it came from the front until I smelled it. It had a weird odor but did not smell anything like vagibal discharge - it was a more neutral smell. Apparently, that stuff comes out when the anal area is bothered or something. Oddly, seeing the stuff turns me on and let's me know that I've gone deep in my ass.
Now, I have this fantasy to be rimmed AND to give a rimjob to my partner and if one thing leads to another, I'd like to peg him.
I really hope my future man is open to it.
It all started when I watched yaoi/shounen-ai (man on man anime) and I was not only curious but turned on by what I was watching. This eventually led to me watching gay porn. Strangely, I'm more turned on by two guys screwing around than I am with a guy screwing a girl.
With all the porn I watched around the time, I never once thought to play with my vag - it was always my butt I was thinking about. I read several online sources on how it felt, which gave me mixed views. Oftentimes while I showered afterwards, I would make sure to clean my rear great and once even pushed my rag further than usual - I immediately felt dirty and exited the shower.
Maybe a month or two after that, I decided that I should try to finger myself, as articles suggested with comfortable anal penetration - start off small and then go big. That day in the shower, I shoved my finger in my mouth and slowly pressed it inside my butt. It hurt like hell, however, I started thrusting. This soon transitioned from fingers to small, empty generic body wash bottles, to much larger bottles. Each time, I came more from it than I did with failed attempts to please myself from the front (then again, I am a virgin.... vaginally, so what would I know?).
The first time I inserted an object in my butt besides my finger, was an old lotion bottle I found in my bedroom. At first it hurt but gradually felt better with time. Afterwards, I wiped and found blood. Panicking, I found it was normal to bleed from (first time) anal stimulation.
From time to time, I have fun playing with my back door, especially after inserting water in myself to clean out the fecal matter. Once, I even fisted myself and plan on continuing. Additionally, I have this clear discharge that comes out whenever I fuck myself. At first, I thought it came from the front until I smelled it. It had a weird odor but did not smell anything like vagibal discharge - it was a more neutral smell. Apparently, that stuff comes out when the anal area is bothered or something. Oddly, seeing the stuff turns me on and let's me know that I've gone deep in my ass.
Now, I have this fantasy to be rimmed AND to give a rimjob to my partner and if one thing leads to another, I'd like to peg him.
I really hope my future man is open to it.
