This is complicated. So bear with me.

First I want to say that I definitely liked making love with 'her'. She is my age and we have the same interests and we met at work and the first time we got naked together it was magic. If she was a man I would want to have her baby. But that is the problem.

I wanted to have a baby, actually I wanted to have three babies. And I told her that I wanted her to have three babies. She didn't want to have babies then, but I told her that I wanted us, both of us, to have three babies. I had a house I inherited from my grandmother where we could live with six kids, the same house that my grandmother raised her six kids. Personally I would have the six kids myself, but I wanted her to experience having babies.

Well that is what I wanted and she reluctantly agreed, not about me having babies, but about her having babies. We both went to the doctor to makes sure everything was ok and he said we were both ok, we were in our prime and having babies wasn't going to be a problem.

That is where Paul comes in. I never considered any other man to have babies for. Paul is 50 and he is the one man that I will crawl for. I identified with Paul, Paul was the man, Paul was/is the man I follow. He is the man in my life. I never considered anyone else to get me pregnant.

When I told Paul of my wish, that I become pregnant and he give me three babies of my own, he already had three babies with his wife, he was, as he put it, amused by the request. But no. Maybe, if we talked it over with his wife, maybe we could agree on one baby for me.

I had been so sure he would grant me what I wanted. He granted me everything else. I am his favorite girl, and he gives me what ever I want. But not this. Like I said, Paul is the man in my life, the only man that I could ever have babies with.

I went crying to his wife, she knows me well because she has had to put up with me for a long time. She also knows that Paul has slapped my rear at times, especially when I was living out of control and he had to bring me back from the edge. Paul is everything, and she knows that Paul is the man I am attached to. She has told me many times to be careful with Paul, because of just this, once I went too far with Paul I couldn't take it back. Anyway, she listened and said no.

So I sat on the floor and I told her I would tell her everything. Everything, I didn't let any thing back, I told her about Paul and me, I told her how I was his and had been since he came for me and brought me back from the edge. I told her that however he wanted me that is how I would be. I would do as he says. I also told her about 'her', my work mate that I want to have babies with. She was surprised that I was with another girl. She so much as said, that I was Paul's and Paul wasn't going to take it very well me sleeping with 'her'. It takes a lot for a man to let his woman sleep with someone else, even if it is another woman. This is really when I understood that Paul had me as his woman, she confirmed it.

I got my baby, Paul in the end agreed to give me my baby. And I know Paul will give me one more for sure, maybe two. I did not tell Paul about her, I told her that Paul wasn't of the mind to have me with someone else and I had to respect his wishes, after all I pretty much belonged to him and he wasn't and never would be of the mind for me to be with someone else. I miss her a lot, mostly when I say I miss her I miss getting naked with her. But I am going to have a baby and that is what matters.

Sorry if I confused you, but that is how it went with me asking for my baby.