Straight Male / 38
I will start off by saying that I have an insatiable appetite for sex. My libido has not decreased at all with age and I'm still as horny as I was when I was 16. I was very fortunate to find a girlfriend in high school who was as sexually driven as I was. We did things to each other that I haven't been able to replicate since. The weird part was we never had intercourse. She was a shy, sorta religious girl that wanted to save her virginity for marriage but we did everything else possible to each other and it kept me satisfied for 3 years. She could make me cum 3 times in 2 hours while sneakily groping each other in her parents' basement or mine. I don't think there is a single square inch of her body that I didn't cum on. She loved it on her stomach the best, but she let me cum on her face, her ass, her legs, anywhere except her pussy because she feared getting pregnant. She was so sexually charged she could cum by rubbing her clothed crotch against my leg and would often do so in the back of her parents' station wagon on rides home from wherever. I still jerk off to memories of shooting ropes of cum on her flat stomach and her pretty blue-eyed face.
After our relationship ran its course (shortly into college) I had a lot of short-lived girlfriends, none that really lasted more than a few months. It was also around this time I discovered the internet. Dial-up internet service was relatively new at the time and I immediately put my spare time to good use browsing painfully slow websites for the filthiest porn I could find. I am grateful that I was somewhat matured when internet porn became available because God only knows how twisted I would be if I discovered it at around 13. It was at this time in life when I discovered my fetish. The first time I saw a low quality pixelated image of a young girl peeing her panties slowly loading on my CRT monitor I almost came in my pants. I never had any sexual experiences involving pee nor am I aware of any suppressed pee-related memories, but I knew right away I was hooked. Nearly 3/4 of my internet porn binging for the next decade
would involve golden showers, panty-peeing, desperation play, fully-clothed pissing, anything pee related.
The biggest problem with this fetish was and still is that I never had the balls to bring this up to any girlfriends or even my wife. I met my wife when we were about 25 and we enjoyed the bliss of young sex for years and later were married and had kids. She is rather reserved and does not like to get deviant in bed, she prefers vanilla sex and does not like toys or fetishes. The closest I came to telling her my secret fetish was jokingly saying to her in moments where we were both rushing to the toilet (say after a long car ride) that if she beat me to the bowl I would just pee on her while she squatted. These innuendos were never met with anything more than a chuckle or an "ew" face. I have become more sneaky about it lately, in the rare moments we shower together I'll pee on her ass while her back is turned and she has no idea I'm doing it as the shower water masks the heat of my piss. Sometimes I steal her panties out the laundry basket, put them on and piss in them in the shower. I hope one day I can bring myself to confess my fetish to my wife and pray that she's willing to try it with me.
After our relationship ran its course (shortly into college) I had a lot of short-lived girlfriends, none that really lasted more than a few months. It was also around this time I discovered the internet. Dial-up internet service was relatively new at the time and I immediately put my spare time to good use browsing painfully slow websites for the filthiest porn I could find. I am grateful that I was somewhat matured when internet porn became available because God only knows how twisted I would be if I discovered it at around 13. It was at this time in life when I discovered my fetish. The first time I saw a low quality pixelated image of a young girl peeing her panties slowly loading on my CRT monitor I almost came in my pants. I never had any sexual experiences involving pee nor am I aware of any suppressed pee-related memories, but I knew right away I was hooked. Nearly 3/4 of my internet porn binging for the next decade
would involve golden showers, panty-peeing, desperation play, fully-clothed pissing, anything pee related.
The biggest problem with this fetish was and still is that I never had the balls to bring this up to any girlfriends or even my wife. I met my wife when we were about 25 and we enjoyed the bliss of young sex for years and later were married and had kids. She is rather reserved and does not like to get deviant in bed, she prefers vanilla sex and does not like toys or fetishes. The closest I came to telling her my secret fetish was jokingly saying to her in moments where we were both rushing to the toilet (say after a long car ride) that if she beat me to the bowl I would just pee on her while she squatted. These innuendos were never met with anything more than a chuckle or an "ew" face. I have become more sneaky about it lately, in the rare moments we shower together I'll pee on her ass while her back is turned and she has no idea I'm doing it as the shower water masks the heat of my piss. Sometimes I steal her panties out the laundry basket, put them on and piss in them in the shower. I hope one day I can bring myself to confess my fetish to my wife and pray that she's willing to try it with me.
