When I was in my teens myself and a couple friends would experiment with sex with each other and would suck and fuck each other over the course of middle and high school. Then as most do we started growing up and went our separate ways, we all got married and had kids. Not sure about the others but for me I stopped messing with guys and never thought about it again until after I got divorced and that took about 3 years before it would happen again. One night after going out to the bars and not having any luck with finding a woman I was walking by an adult book store and decided I would go in and check things out as I never been in one.
I went in and was looking around at all the videos and magazines. I seen a guy come in and chatted with the counter person and paid some money and went in the back through a door way. I went to the counter and asked what was in the back. He told me video booths where you can watch some of the videos they were promoting for that month. I paid to go in the back and got 5 dollars in coins and headed in the back. It was fairly dark back there and as I walked around checking out the booths and I noticed a light at the top of each booth and it would be on if someone was in the booth watching videos. I found a booth and sat down and put some coins in the machine and started watching the clip. Some black guy was getting a blowjob from a white girl and I seen the channel button and started clicking through the channels and came across one where some guy was sucking another guy while he was getting fucked in the ass.
I instantly started to get hard and as I was watching it I started rubbing myself and enjoying the show. The booths didn't have any doors on them but you hard a hard time seeing what was on the screen if you were standing in the doorway of the booth. I turned the volume so others wouldn't hear what I was watching. As guys would walk by I would stop rubbing myself being I never been in a store like this before. As I was watching the movie this one guy kept walking past and would stop from time to time and just stand there for a few seconds. Well about the 5th or 6th time he stopped he stepped into the doorway and was holding his cock in his hand.
I looked at him and then his cock a couple times and he moved into the booth a little more and asked if I wanted to suck his cock. I asked where we could go and he said right here. I said I wasn't sure about that because there were signs on the booths stating only one person per booth. He told me this happens all the time. He was stroking his cock as we were chatting and I kept looking at his cock and he moved in a little closer and for some reason I reached and started jerking him then leaned into him so to put his cock in my mouth. Then the rush came and it brought back the memories of younger days and I was really starting to get into sucking him when I noticed there was another guy standing just off to the side watching us which got me even hotter and I pulled off his cock and said someone was watching us. He looked and said don't worry about him guys watch all the time and grabbed my head and started face fucking me.
A short time later he pulled really hard on my head and blew a big load in my mouth and told me to swallow. I couldn't pull off his cock and ended up swallowing every bit of his load except the little bit that leaked out the side of my mouth. After he was done he left and I cleaned the cum off the sides of my mouth and got up and left. When I got home I thought about what I did and realized I liked it. So from then on if I was in between girlfriends I would head down to the book store and suck a few guys off. This went one for awhile and about 6 years ago after my last girlfriend I was getting horny but where I live now there are no book stores within 90 minutes of me so I started to check out gay sites and craigs list for any locals being I didn't want to drive 70 miles to the stores. What I found out was there are a lot of players on the sites and CL and maybe 1 out of ever 15 would actually meet for real time play.
I had posted on CL for a local to suck on a regular bases and finally after a couple months I found a guy that actually wanted to meet which we did and it became a regular thing for about a year then he had to move out of state. I started dating again but noticed I wasn't really getting into fucking the women and struggled with getting hard and thought this can't be right being I was only 47 at the time. Well I hooked up with a guy or a quick one night stand and found I had no problem getting hard while sucking him off and when he fucked me he actually made me cum without even touching myself. Over the next couple days I thought about this and did a little experiment where I dated a couple women and played with a couple more guys and found out with the women I struggled and with the men I was rock hard like a teenager.
After that I basically concentrated on only hooking up with men. Then about 4 years ago my life changed big time. I hooked up with this guy that was about 6'2 and 230 pounds and I am only 5'7 and 165 pounds so his size was quite bigger then mine. Anyways it became a regular thing and although he was only about 6 1/2 inches long he was on the thicker side but a very nice cock. Well as time passed I hooked up with a few other guys and topped a few but it got to the point I preferred to bottom instead and with this guy he was a total top and somewhat on the dominant side. I would suck and bottom for him once or twice a week and yeah he would suck me off from time to time but not to many times which didn't bother me.
Then one day he comes over and tells me he wanted to see me shaved smooth from the neck down and we went into the shower and he shaved me, even my underarms. We had great sex that day and I don't think I ever felt him that hard before. He told me with being shaved I looked like I had a twiks body being I was thin but fit. Then one day he shows up and tells me he wanted to see me in panties which I tell him I don't have any and he pulls out a pair of pink silk panties and gives them to me. I take off my clothes and put them on and they were a little small but fit and he started rubbing my cock and said they looked great. He fucked me harder then I could ever remember him fucking me that day and made me cum so hard.
Well that started something new and within a could get together he told me he only wanted to see me in panties and I needed to buy some. I did as told and picked up a couple different styles and pretty colors. Well now that is all I wear and he got rid of all my male underwear. That was about 4 years ago and even thou we don't see each other anymore I still only wear panties and love pleasing real men. I love playing the female role even thou I only wear panties and don't cross dress I feel like the female when with men and being most men are much bigger then me in body size and even cock size being I am only 5 1/2 and on the thinner side of average.
If I could move to a bigger city I would but I live in a small town area and it is hard to find guys to hook up with. I now shave my whole body head to toe and wear panties 24/7 and I only want to please real men, having no interest in women for the past 3 years and only get hard when I have a cock in my mouth or ass. I am always horny and would suck cock any time or place and willing to be a real man's bitch boi and don't care who knows. I just love cock. So now at 53 I am proud of being a gay bitch boi.