I have read this site for a very long time. And I have come to the realization that many people live dual lives. They hide dirty dark secrets that they are fearful of sharing. Whether it be that they would be judged, cast out, criticized, insulted, or treated in a horrible way by others around them for doing what they want to do or be with who they want to be with to be happy, they don't talk about it. Until they release their stories on here. Much why I am doing the same. I wrote one several days ago, about something very dirty, intimate, and sexual in nature that I could for obvious reasons you will understand, reading more, not share with my workers, neighbors or friends.

I love masturbation and porn. I love feeling the release of having an orgasm. I love sex, but sadly, through the years of marriage, my wife has lost her ambition and energy in doing it. We still do on occasion, but physically it is not enough for me. So I masturbate and experience the release of orgasm 7-8 times a week. It helps me out immensely, and it is enough to get me through.

Approximately 8 months ago, my high school age teenage daughter caught me masturbating. It led to a very awkward conversation the next day, and over a short period of time, for reasons that I still cannot explain or understand, led me to allowing my hormones to get the best of me, and letting her watch me masturbate. She initiated the conversation, and sexually exciting me, I let her do it. I figured she could see the same on a porn video, so no harm was being done. And for several months, I let this behavior continue, with her on an almost daily basis, watching me masturbate, and ejaculate. Experiencing an orgasm in front of her was one of the most stimulating and dirty things I have ever done. Until several months into it, our conversation turned very dirty, perverted and sexual in nature. And it led to her and I having sex. As in a sexual encounter. Including using condoms for protection, and me experiencing an orgasm inside her. Which led to a second encounter that night, and several more over a period of a couple of months. It stopped at that point, as we mutually agreed we should not continue the potential risk of doing this together, considering her age, my age, and our relationship.

Last night, I was in my computer room. Brandy and I had watched a movie together, hanging out in the living room. She had gotten finished up, took care of business in the bathroom, and said she was tired, and was going to go to bed. As she walked down the hall, I followed her into her room. She turned around, and I looked at her, and I simply said to her "I want to sleep with you." She looked at me in shock and said "you what?" to which I said yes. I said I knew it was dirty, it was wrong, but I liked being with her.

She stood there, and she undressed quietly. Removed her shirt, her pajama shorts, and removed her white panties and her bra. Standing there naked, I stared at her curved flat stomach, her round small breasts, and her blonde/brown pubic hair that covered her petite little teenage pussy. She stood there as I took off my shorts, my boxers and my shirt, and was erect, and extremely sexually stimulated. As I walked up to her, I finally said to her "Are you sure that you are OK with this?" to which she nodded and said at first, it was awkward, and weird, and at first, it was kind of dirty feeling, but when we were actually doing it, I just put thought out of my head, because I like how you did things to me, and how you felt and all that. And I just didn't think about you being my dad.

As we started to get involved sexually, she pushed back a bit, and said can I ask you a question. I said yes. And she said I'm 16. Have you ever slept with another girl my age? I looked at her and I said honestly no. I have had several chances, and opportunities, but I was afraid. That it would get out. They would brag to their friends. That the mom or dad would find out. And God forbid that happens. Even if they are legal, I knew the consequences, being married, and in my job and all, so I never took the risk. I just masturbate a lot. She laughed and said thanks for sharing that last part with me. I shrugged and just said your mom and I rarely have sex. It's just not something she's interested in. So I do what's necessary to take care of it.

Brandy and I looked at each other, and slowly and gently started kissing, which led to more intimate actions, and sexual behavior. I slowly lowered her on her bed, and proceeded to perform various sex acts on her, including oral sex that brought her to orgasm the first time. I stopped, proceeded to kiss and touch her more, and then while I was doing it a second time, she gasped and said Oh God Dad. Please don't stop that. You're going to make me have an orgasm. Hearing her 16 year old voice call me that while I was doing such an immoral sexual act on her, nearly made me explode all over her sheets.

When I finally finished, I climbed up, and was between Brandy's legs. I tore open the condom package, and I unwrapped it, and pulled it over my erection. I slowly entered her. And eventually filled her all the way up with my penis, going deep inside her. She gasped, and tightened up. And she slightly giggled, and said how's it feel to have sex with a 16 year old? I just stopped, she looked at me, and laughed and said just kidding. I slid deeper inside her, and made her gasp.

When I reached orgasm, my penis was enormous. I heard her gasp and say Oh God Dad. It's really big. Hearing her say that, I released. I exploded, filling the condom up inside Brandy. I felt my penis erupting, and it filled it. I finally was spent, and laid there with her for a few minutes. And she said we should maybe get cleaned up. We did.

I went downstairs when it was done. I was in the kitchen getting a drink, when she came up into the kitchen behind me, and put her arms around me. I felt her push her breasts against me, and she whispered thank you. I turned around and said for what? She said you make me feel wonderful.

I commenced to start kissing her right there in the kitchen. And we proceeded about 20 minutes later, to have sex on the dining room carpet in my house. We had to stop mid intimacy, because I told her I would not do it without using protection even though she was on the pill. She went upstairs to get a condom, came down, and we proceeded to finish. This time with exception, I wanted to do something different. She said yes. I was ready to have an orgasm, pulled out, unwrapped the condom, and I came on her stomach and breasts. She laid there watching me, stroke myself gently, and then erupt on her. When I finished, she was laying on her back, and as I was still hard to a point, I entered her. I heard her gasp. I knew it was a risk, but I wanted to feel her, having already came.

I entered her, and I laid there with my penis hard inside her, kissing her and tenderly touching her. I just stared at her, thrust several times, and I stopped, saying I just wanted to feel her. We got up and cleaned up again and got dressed.

Today when she got up and around for work, she kissed me, and said to me thank you. I want to again tonight. Will you? I said yes...