I don't know what's gonna happen with my life. I am fucking tired of masturbating to porn. I wish I could stop but I won't have to worry anymore.

I think I'm going crazy because recently I started to imagine my death. I know that I am young but I don't see any reason for me to keep living anymore. Nobody likes me and nobody understands me because they don't know what its like to feel like a girl. To feel in a different body.

I have been wanting to die for a while now. I have the opportunity now and I shouldn't let it go to waste. I just want to talk with someone about what is going through my head.

I think about death a lot and I have also thought about looking for someone who would kill me. I would like it to be a girl though. If u are still reading you probably think I'm lying about this story but I am not lying. I really am troubled and I am not what u would call a normal teen.

Before this confession comes to an end I wanted to ask people that read it to comment on how u would mistreat me if u had me with u and I was totally vulnerable.

PS: I am not going to kill myself or anything like that. I'm just very sad and nobody wants to hear me. 😞