The first time that my steady girl friend and I became intimate, I lied to her that this was my first time. She must have believed it because she said that I was clumsy and didn't seem to know what I was doing. But it was a lie. I had a sexual encounter of sorts when I was 16. I had been masturbating ever since puberty which was around 13 for me. I had just finished taking a bath and was getting ready for bed. It was dead quiet in the house and I was sure others had gone to bed. So, as I had done numerous times before, I laid stark naked on my bed and masturbated vigorously. I cannot remember why but I was really horny. But then my mother burst into my room with a hamper of clean clothes. She ALWAYS knocks first but this time her hands were occupied. As for me, my eyes were closed and my mind was a million miles away. She had caught me off guard and I was so embarassed. I quickly covered up and over the next several minutes, we talked about sexual things, much of which I already knew from Health classes in school. Mother then surprised me by asking if I would like to experience what it feels like to be inside a woman. She said there was nothing wrong with doing this and that someday, I will be doing this with a girlfriend. Before I could even answer, she opened up her nightgown and spread her legs apart to reveal her naked crotch. I had never seen a woman's genitals before and they looked so wrinked and hairy. I could clearly make out her vaginal lips. They were closed tightly and she spread them apart with her fingers so I could come inside her. With encouragement from her, I took my penis which was stiff by now and pushed it hard against the opening. It began to enter her vagina and gradually it went all the way inside. It was a beautiful sensation that I will never forget. I still remember the expression on my mother's face as she gradually closed her eyes and laid her head back on the bed. It was if she was waiting for something more. The original idea was that I would experience penetrating her and nothing more. But that was not to be. I began pumping into her, slowly at first but faster and faster, until after a few minutes, I ejaculated. I just laid there thinking that I had just released my semen into her. I had inseminated my mother. I wondered how she was going to react to this. But after a few hugs and few kind words, she got up off the bed and went to the bathroom to clean up. When she returned, she said that she hoped that I had learned something from the experience and that it will be useful later in life. Well, I did learn a lot from the experience but I wish that I didn't have to lie about. I wish that I could tell my girl friend and others(except perhaps my father) that Mother let me have sexual intercourse with her as part of a learning experience and there is is nothing wrong with that. But because of the stigma attached to this, I'll just keep my mouth shut.

One Mom's son.