I can't believe how many people do crazy stuff and talk about it on here. I knew I wasn't the only one, but I had no idea until I started to Google sites and found this, that people were so into things I know most people wouldn't get into. At least I know I'm not the only different one :)

I started fooling around with guys when I was 12. No, nobody made me do it. I'd seen my mom and dad fuck a couple of times, and was curious what it was like. I caught my sister and her boyfriend doing each other a couple of times, and I hid while they were going at it. I guess I was curious and liked it. It ended up where I was fooling around with a couple of different guys, and as much as I wanted to do stuff, they wouldn't go very far because they knew I wasn't that old. The closest I got was when I was at a friends house, and I was messing with her older brother, and he couldn't get his dick hard. I'd never seen that before. He got all upset, saying it was because he was scared, and nothing else happened. I remember when he'd brag that he was awesome and could do all this dirty stuff and girls loved him, I'd tell people that he couldn't even get it up, so whatever he was saying was a lie. It was hilarious.

I'd just turned 13, and spent the weekend at my best friend Carly's house. Her mom was usually gone overnight and I hung out with her and her dad. We'd always done stuff together, and I was there a lot. I dunno why I did it, but that weekend, I stole some of my sisters condoms, and put them in my bag. I'm not sure if I thought her dad would even mess around, considering he was married and all, but I guess I wondered since he always made sex jokes, even though he knew how old I was. I figure maybe he was into dirty stuff or liked other girls and that's why he did it.

Carly got tired and said she was gonna go upstairs to bed. I went up with her for a bit, and she fell asleep, so I went back downstairs to see what her dad was doing. He was on the computer, and when he saw me, he got into talking and we were just sitting there chilling. I'd made a joke about him watching porn, and he laughed and said no, he usually does that later after everyone is sleeping. So I asked him if he was jerking. He laughed and said well, sometimes. Every guy does it. I guess I was curious if he'd do it, so I just laughed and said if he wanted to, he could jerk it for me. I'd sit and watch. He just looked at me and laughed and said, well as hot as that is, considering you're like 13, it's probably not a good idea. I just shrugged and said well I'd just watch. I'd seen it before, and thought it was kind of hot. He asked me who I'd seen, so I didn't lie. I told him I'd seen my sister and her boyfriend banging, and I'd seen my mom and dad. And thought it was sexy to see people get it on. He just laughed and said I had a dirty mind for a 13 year old. I just said I'm smarter than my age. And it's too bad he'd never know it. He looked at me and said you're serious? You'd really watch? I sat there and said yeah sure. I think it would be hot. Especially because nobody would know what we're doing. I never thought he'd actually do it. But he said yes. I was kind of freaked out, never having seen a dude do it like that, but he said he'd put on some porn or something. I'd messed with a couple of guys, so kind of knew things, and I just said what if I did something and made you horny and you wanted to do it. He just stared at me and said what would you do? I just shrugged and said I dunno. I could like take my clothes off or something. He sat there staring, and said you'd undress? Just to watch me jerk it or something? I just laughed and said well, if you wanted to do more than jerk it, well, you wouldn't have to stop there. He kind of stared at me and said no. He wasn't gonna get busted. I just said that's what the last guy said too. I wanted to do it, and he said no. He said he wouldn't because of my age.

Carly's dad looked at me and said why, you'd never say nothing? I shook my head and said no way. I'd never wanna rat someone out and get them busted. That would be nasty and wrong, and not really fair. He just sat there and said God I really wanna do this. It's just really sexy, and kind of dirty and I know it's wrong. And guys would dream of something like this, especially since you're so cute and fucking hot and the little body you have. I just laughed and said well, I guess if you wanna just do your thing, we can see. He shook his head and said yeah.

So we're sitting there talking and it got about sex. And he starts asking me questions, so I started asking him questions about the sex stuff he's done, what's his favorite and all that. And I see him rubbing his shorts. I just finally said are you getting turned on? He says yeah. And I said well if you wanna do it, I'll sit and watch. And he says yeah. He took his short off, and then his shorts. And he said you're really gonna get undressed? I said yeah. I took my shirt off and then my shorts. He sat there staring and just said Oh God. You're fucking hot looking. Fuck what a body. I just kind of laughed and said well, it didn't let the other guys do anything, so I dunno if it's all that. And I saw him pull his underwear down, and his dick was really hard. He said well, it's done this for me. So I'm not sure if you think so now. I just sat there and stared. I'd never seen one that big. Both of the guys I'd seen fucking weren't like that.

So when he starts touching himself, I took off my bra and underwear, and just sat there. He kept staring, and he kept saying Oh God you're so fucking cute. I am so horny. I finally got up and walked up to him. He looked kind of scared. I didn't say anything for a second, just kind of stood there and then I pushed up against him. He kind of scared me, but grabbed me and started kissing on me. And then we started doing stuff. He was all over me, kissing and touching my boobs, and rubbing my nipples and then he started fingering me. He knew what to do, and was a lot better than the other guys that had tried and had been lame as shit. He kept going and I started getting really wet. He kept touching, and I felt it happening. I knew I was having an orgasm, and he held onto me really tight as I started to shake really hard and start panting really fast. He was holding me against him rubbing me with his fingers, and when I was done, he finally stopped and smiled and said that was nice. I looked at him and said please don't stop. He stared at me and said you can't tell anyone. I mean it. For real. I'd get in trouble. I just said no. I'd never say.

He did oral on me for like 20 minutes. He kept touching me, and kissing me and licking my legs, and fingering me. It was incredible. When he finally finished, he said that now he'd masturbate, and finish. I said no. He looked at me. I went into my bag, and got condoms out. And I said if he wanted to, he could have sex with me. He just sat there staring at me and said no. He said I can't do that. I said yes. I wouldn't tell anyone. We sat and talked for probably 15 minutes before I convinced him I was being serious.

We ended up fucking on his living room floor. I sat there when he put the condom on, and he got me on the floor, and kept saying I can't tell anyone. He knew I hadn't sex before, so he went into the bathroom and got a towel and said in case we make a mess. I know that when we started doing it, it hurt like hell, because he was so big. But he finally said he was going to do it, and I said yeah. And when he shoved his dick all the way inside me, he had to put his hand over my mouth because it hurt like hell. He finally got it all the way in me, and just laid there for a second. And then he started moving and slowly fucking me.

I was on my back the whole time, and he probably fucked me for about 15 minutes. It was really hot to watch him do what he was doing, and then when he said that he felt it, I knew he was gonna go. I just nodded and he started pumping really fast, and kept going and going, and I heard him grunting and saw him gasping, and then seeing his face, I knew he was doing it. He kept saying Oh God Oh God oh God. And then all the sudden, just finally fell on me, laying there and kept saying Oh Sweet Jesus. Oh Sweet Jesus.

We laid there for a second, and he was kissing on me. It went on for quite awhile, until he said we should get cleaned up. I said yeah. It was kind of messy, but he had the towel on the floor, and we wiped up and cleaned up. I won't lie. It was OK to lose it to a guy who knew how to do something and how to fuck. We did it that one night, and then about two weeks later, when I spent the weekend again, we had sex twice. In the living room the first time, and then in the bathroom the second time.

For about a year, off and on, when I'd go over there, I'd wait until Carly would go to sleep, and we'd fuck around once or twice. He was really good. And then after awhile, he said he was afraid that we'd get caught, or someone would find out. He knew I was dating guys, had boyfriends and stuff, and I liked fucking around with him, but it just kind of came to a stop.

I won't lie. I miss it. He was really good. We're still friends, and I do wonder sometimes what it'd be like now, a couple of years later.