I hope its mostly women who read this catagory and wonder if other females get aroused by having themselves humiliated. After a failed marriage I found myself aroused by exposing myself to guys I knew and many I didn't know. I do consider myself attractive but have become an exhibitionist in the sickest sense of the word, which began almost two years ago. I do and say things to guys I never dreamed about and not only have sex with them but also encourage them to shame and humiliate me. Some have been as young as 19 or 20 up to the age of the oldest who is 71 years old. He is Craig who comes to my apartment at least twice a month. Some of these guys or should I say most of the middle age ones are married but don't hesitate to take advantage of my wishes. I never have intercouse with any unless they wear a condom but thats only the tip of the iceburg. I have these guys not only shave my pubic area but also supply them with sex toys to use on me and often have them spank me. Some of the men are more aggressive than others but as much as it arouses me and enables me to orgasm often, afterwards I am humiliated and ashamed of what I let them do to me. I have a guy at my apartment once or twice a week, sometimes a guy I only met the night before. Some are only here one time but many others have been here many times over the last 23 months. As I sit here typing this I shiver at some of the mortifying things I have allowed these guys to do, not to mention the embarrassing ways I am exposed to them. Its not mostly intercouse and oral sex it is more having them explore and take advantage of my body. I let these guys do things to me that I never experienced with my husband and when I think about it the next day it is totally disgraceful.

I keep telling myself I have to stop doing this but then the urge comes back and I either hook up with another new guy or call one from the past. The old man Craig has been coming her about twice a month for more than a year, Although we seldom have intercouse I always let him shave me and not only let him spank me but allow him to position me however he likes and penitrate my vagina and rectum with sex toys including vibrators. I at least always masturbate him and often give him oral sex but he pays more attention to me than anything else. Some of the guys don't know how to take me but some also are to aggressive but strangly I put up with it anyhow. My husband had an above avarage size penis and by now I assume I have seen almost every size there can be from extremely small to xtra large, circumsized and not. I don't like a guy coming in my mouth but it has happened many times with the more agressive guys. At first I didn't care for anal sex but now I find it arousing. I have stooped so low with my sex cravings that a dozen times or more I have had two guys here at the same time which often has gotten out of hand. There are two sets of them the first is two brothers but the other guys are best friends. Its hard to explain but as humiliating as it gets sometimes my sex drive seems to heighten and I continually orgasm while they do everthing imaginable to my body. Sometimes it actually feels like I am getting r**ed but the entire time I am so aroused the orgasms come one after the other. With two guys I am usually sucking one as the other is having intercouse with me or anal sex. There have been so many guys I can't remember most of there names. There are a lot I have only seen one time and I ponder what they must think about me, even the guys I have here often. I have a good job and a great family yet I let myself continue doing all this. None of my real friends know about it and I would be too ashamed to tell any of them. I suppose it has becaome a fetish for me and just the fact these guys see me naked is arousing let alone all I let them do to me. I often dispise myself thinking about how I allow my body to be abused especially by some of the guys I don't particularly like. There are only 5 guys who have my cell phone number incuding Craig but the rest of them I call when I feel the urge. Am I unique or are there other women who do this type of thing and belittle themselves like I do. My problem is I regret it sometimes but seem to be compelled to let it continue the way it is since it is so satisfying at the same time.