Nearly every morning I watch him masturbate and wonder if he'd allow me to suck it for him. And every time I witness his cum flying from his cock now, I realise it's been over a year since my husbands accident. It means he can no longer have meaningful sex, but I miss it terribly.
He's nineteen and very athletically built. His cock is about the same as my husbands used to be, if not a little thicker. I know he knows I watch him and I often wonder if he does it for my benefit. Last week I stood watching him across the sixty feet which devides our bedrooms. Only the windows panes separated us from conversing, or from me asking him if he wanted to fuck my pussy he could see me playing with.
It's the first time in a long long time, that I've had a sexual encounter other than on my own. I just wish I knew what say or do to let him know I'd readily let him fuck all my holes. It's frustrating having a young sexual guy only yards away from me, even if I do get to watch him wank his gorgeous cock.
I'm ready to cheat on my husband. Not out fo malice, but out of sexual need. He for his part has hinted to me to seek out a "sex partner", but he did say one evening when I asked him to use the dildo in me, we'd bought together "Maybe you could find a guy when you have your monthly seminars". He laughed when he said it, but I think he was being secretly honest.
It's difficult as I know other men find me attractive. I think it's time to satify my urges. That young man has opened my eyes to what I need. And that's his young hard cock deep inside my pussy and asshole.