I've been giving blow jobs to this 50 year old married guy for a few months now. We met at a pub and he followed me outside when I went to leave for the night to protect me from a group of younger guys that were trying to hit on me all night. He's really fit and definitely has his own money, and that night made it clear he wanted me. It was just two more "chance" encounters before I agreed to get into his big luxury sedan and suck him off in the back seat. He's that charming. He, in turn, fingered me until I came, three times. We've been doing just this kind of fun, no penetration, at least twice a week since then. Sometimes we do it in his car, or we sneak into the closed part of that pub (the restaurant dining room area is closed after 9pm) we go to. Once, we sat in the corner booth, and he ws fingering me right there in the open! It was so hot, and scary! He never took his hand out while I just kept coming and had to have conversations with the waiters and everything!

but, he last few times ive tried to hive him head, he tries to deep throat me by grabbing me by the hair and forcing his cock into the back of my throat until I choke. I hate it. Makes me want to bite it, but I know he would never let me try again, so I take it, the best I can, and pray that I don't gag on him. Ive managed ok so far by doing a lot of licking, ball sucking and handiwork in-between, but when he's ready to blow his load in my mouth, I know I will be deep throated, and hard.

A couple of nights ago he also was stroking and pushing his fingers on my forbidden hole...I was very tense, but he insisted that he wasn't going in, and just wanted me to start to like it. He switched to his cock, gently pushing on the area, trying to get me to relax. It actually started to work and I started to get excited from all the stroking and touching.

Well, here I am 4 days later and I keep thinking about the contrast between his gentle and coaxing touch on my bottom and his rough and demanding control of my head.

I wish I could take more of his cock in my mouth,but he's just so big...its literally painful to open my jaw that wide. The thought of that big cock in my forbidden hole makes me tense up. How can I get my jaw to relax when I know its going to hurt?

I have never wanted to be like this for a man...since I'm pretty hot (I give myself an 8), no one has ever dared demand anything from me like this. Now, I find myself just wanting to please him, trying to discreetly find articles online explaining better ways to give blowjobs.

Tomorrow, he usually shows up at the pub and I will be there, ready to try again...any tips on how to take him deeper?