This is part confession, and part a question for whomever might want to answer....

I have been married for 13 years, and I have been having an affair for the past 8.
Its nothing I am proud of, it just a part of my life now. Please dont bash me for that.
My lover, John, knows I have no intention of leaving my husband. We just get together for
amazing sex which I have never had with my spouse.
John is a lot bigger than my husband , both height and weight and yes, size-wise too.
My husband takes the train downtown during the week, so John and I get together here at my house.
We know its safe and we have never had any close calls.
I know John loves having sex with me in my "marital bed", and he always comes up with crazy things to do
with me being a married woman. One of his biggest turn ons is when I call my husband while we are in bed
together - I know cheating is wrong, doing it at home is worse, and then calling my husband on top of
it AS I am having sex is downright mean. I honestly do it though for Johns sake.
So my confession is my affair, and all the things John talks me into secretly doing to my husband behind
his back.

Now for the interesting part -
As "macho" as John is, and how much more dominant he is with me in bed, he always is asking
about me and my husbands sex life. He wants to know every detail, especially about my husbands
size and stamina.
One morning, my husband was horny before he left work and he and I had a quickie. I was supposed
to see John that morning, and by the time I called him he was already on his way.
I admitted to John that my husband and I just had sex, and I would give him a blowjob at least. John could
not wait to get me into bed! As soon as he had me naked, he started to go down on me.
As he at me out, he wanted to hear how my husband fucked me, what position, and did it feel like
he came big.
From that day on, John was hooked. He wanted me to arrange sloppy seconds as often as I could.
He will actually be upset when I do NOT initiate something with my husband before he comes over.
I will admit, it is kind of fun to make love to my husband - then shorlty after he leaves get
a harder, more frantic fuck from John. And its kind of neat to "share" part of my husband with
my lover. The days I have the mixture of both men inside me is always so thrilling as well.
I just cant believe how John is so into tasting my husbands cum.
He likes to bash my husband when we have sex, he loves hearing that my husband is smaller, he loves
knowing he satifies me more than my husband - but he cant wait to eat my husbands cum from out of me.
I would think that is the LAST thing he would ever want to do.

Any ideas why John is so dominant for the most part, yet always wants my husband to go first with me??