I am a virgin. My hidden secret,I find myself addicted to gay porn. I like the thoughts of me watching men suck and fuck one another it secretly makes me wet.
I once had a a sexting affair with a man I met on a website, he liked to be dominated by women. He wanted to be fucked in the ass, and licked, while I made him beg me to cum. It embarrasses me that I like the thought of all these things.
I even love the thought of pain against skin.To be chained, whipped, paddled,made to feel like a slut because I am aren't I ?
Even trannys can get me off but nothing like 2 cocks rubbing together one masculine while the others submits spread open to everything. I crave something beyond my reach in the place I stay but in my stolen moments just these thoughts brings my pussy juices out.
Why am I so disgusting, but then I still want to experience it. I need someone to understand what I'm really yearning for because my frustrating lack of sexual experience leaves me sexually frustrated.
I've attempted dildo masturbation a few times but it just feels unnatural, I don't think I've ever experienced a climax. No matter how many times I rub myself watching my filthy desires on video I can't seem to find that elusive "o" but I feel dirty and soaked because it turns me on.
I'm not sure what really makes my pussy flow, the way the man groans and moans as his asshole is penetrated bareback the slickness of spit and lube covering both his hole and his lovers cock while it pushes in and out of his tight hole. I don't understand why I'm not like normal women my days who just wants to be fucked by some dick or even a nice pussy cat, no I love my dirty desires. And it makes me feel alone and unwanted. When will my sexual fantasies, needs, wants be fulfilled?
Someone help me understand...