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Anything Goes
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Straight Female / 47
My husband passed away 4 years ago. Since his passing I have not wanted to be with another man and have been satisfying my infrequent yearnings myself until a couple weeks ago. Our daughter recently lost her job and asked if she could move back in with me for a little while. I was happy to tell her yes, she could stay in the extra guest bedroom and if she would help me clean out the den, then her two little boys could stay there and she could have the guest bedroom to herself--she is divorced.
Cleaning day arrived and she was there with my delightful grandchildren bright and early. Everything was going well until we got into my husband's personal things; I just had to take a break. Sherri finished cleaning things up for me while grandma played with the boys in the yard. She finished up and even moved the boxes to the garage. When me and my grandsons came back in to start dinner, she told me everything was done and handed me my husband's laptop. I took it and set it on my bed so I could go through its memories in private.
My husband and I had a very good sex life and he used to like to find porn videos to show me--that we could enjoy together. Well, to cut my ramblings down, I didn't know he kept them all, but I found the collection on his laptop. I looked over the titles remembering the times we had, there were only a half dozen. I realized that last one was not one we had watched.
Sherri had long since gone back to her apartment, so I decided to watch it. I thought kind of one last time. I hooked the laptop to the flat screen and started the video. It started out like the others, but I was surprised when the "star" opened the door and 3 tall black men entered. They almost immediately started to have sex with her. They all ended up in the bedroom, in bed. 1 of them under her, 1 behind, and one pressing his way too big of male member into her mouth.
To say I was not ready for this, would be an understatement. I was embarrassed, red faced, but very excited. I tried rubbing, and even ran and got my toy, but everything felt so very unsatisfying. Even after my pleasure I could not get that out of my mind--3 guys. 3 black guys having sex with her.
I cannot get that video out of my mind. I watch it at least daily. The black men I encounter daily in my life have become an object of fantasy after fantasy. I see a black man now, and my eyes almost instantly look to his private area to see if I can get an estimate on how big he is. A couple gentlemen have caught me looking and have made advances--honestly, it was all I could do to not take them back home and do what was being done in that video. I think about doing that all the time. Even in my dreams I cannot escape it, I have awakened from dreams of doing that while I physically am in the trows of passion.
I am coming to realize that I want to have sex again, but maybe what I want is sex like in the video. I think of it all the time. My daughter and grandsons move in at the end of this month and if I don't do it before they move in I don't think I will ever do it. I don't know what to do, but since I watched that video, my self pleasures are not that satisfying any more.
Cleaning day arrived and she was there with my delightful grandchildren bright and early. Everything was going well until we got into my husband's personal things; I just had to take a break. Sherri finished cleaning things up for me while grandma played with the boys in the yard. She finished up and even moved the boxes to the garage. When me and my grandsons came back in to start dinner, she told me everything was done and handed me my husband's laptop. I took it and set it on my bed so I could go through its memories in private.
My husband and I had a very good sex life and he used to like to find porn videos to show me--that we could enjoy together. Well, to cut my ramblings down, I didn't know he kept them all, but I found the collection on his laptop. I looked over the titles remembering the times we had, there were only a half dozen. I realized that last one was not one we had watched.
Sherri had long since gone back to her apartment, so I decided to watch it. I thought kind of one last time. I hooked the laptop to the flat screen and started the video. It started out like the others, but I was surprised when the "star" opened the door and 3 tall black men entered. They almost immediately started to have sex with her. They all ended up in the bedroom, in bed. 1 of them under her, 1 behind, and one pressing his way too big of male member into her mouth.
To say I was not ready for this, would be an understatement. I was embarrassed, red faced, but very excited. I tried rubbing, and even ran and got my toy, but everything felt so very unsatisfying. Even after my pleasure I could not get that out of my mind--3 guys. 3 black guys having sex with her.
I cannot get that video out of my mind. I watch it at least daily. The black men I encounter daily in my life have become an object of fantasy after fantasy. I see a black man now, and my eyes almost instantly look to his private area to see if I can get an estimate on how big he is. A couple gentlemen have caught me looking and have made advances--honestly, it was all I could do to not take them back home and do what was being done in that video. I think about doing that all the time. Even in my dreams I cannot escape it, I have awakened from dreams of doing that while I physically am in the trows of passion.
I am coming to realize that I want to have sex again, but maybe what I want is sex like in the video. I think of it all the time. My daughter and grandsons move in at the end of this month and if I don't do it before they move in I don't think I will ever do it. I don't know what to do, but since I watched that video, my self pleasures are not that satisfying any more.
