Bi-Sexual Male / 35
Over the past couple years I've found myself more and more attracted to cocks. Hot chicks and big dicks, I say, is what I'm interested in as far as porn. But sometimes I feel as though I'm not really interested in dicks sexually, but because I've lost the male presence in my life after my father and brother died. Maybe it's not sexual, but just wanting to have a masculine influence, a stiff, hard, solid cock seems so appealing perhaps because I've got no sturdy foundation in my life anymore.
It started years ago, when I realized that a 'girl' in a picture I had jerked off to a couple times of a hot girl in a red bikini (h*****/w**.futanarifreaks.**m/wp/wp-content/uplo ads/2011/05/Poju-Futanari-Leak ing-Cum1.jpg) turned out to be a chick with a dick. I hadn't noticed because I was looking at her tits. Or did I notice?
Then I started to find myself searching specifically for blowjob videos in which the guy's cock looked like mine (but preferably bigger). Just because it's easier to imagine myself in the scene, I would say. But eventually I realized I was looking at the cock more than the girls, and was a little more jealous of the girls giving the blow jobs than of the guys receiving them.
I kept jerking off to the picture of the chick with a dick in the red bikini, finding it strangely fascinating and weirdly exhilarating. I found that there's a whole genre of art dealing with chicks with dicks called futanari. I was hooked. I found a site called futanaria that had clips of real chicks with fake but semi-believable dicks strapped on, sucking and jerking each other off. From there I graduated to shemale porn.
Next thing I knew I was jerking off to a picture of a cock!
I still jerk off to girls, big tits, curves, makeup. Some of them just look so good, but I also find I'm strangely drawn to, and excited by, videos of guys jerking off, pictures of stiff dicks, jealous of girls giving blow jobs, oddly aroused and excited by the idea of giving a hand job or blow job, imagining the taste and feeling of having a big, hard cock in my mouth, and watching sissy hypno shit at anna malice website and loving it.
Anyway, I'm not complaining. I think it's great to be interested in more things, and turned on by more things, and I figure I'm just somewhere on the grey scale between straight and gay and it doesn't really matter which way I go because neither is wrong. I just wonder if anyone else has experienced something similar.
It started years ago, when I realized that a 'girl' in a picture I had jerked off to a couple times of a hot girl in a red bikini (h*****/w**.futanarifreaks.**m/wp/wp-content/uplo ads/2011/05/Poju-Futanari-Leak ing-Cum1.jpg) turned out to be a chick with a dick. I hadn't noticed because I was looking at her tits. Or did I notice?
Then I started to find myself searching specifically for blowjob videos in which the guy's cock looked like mine (but preferably bigger). Just because it's easier to imagine myself in the scene, I would say. But eventually I realized I was looking at the cock more than the girls, and was a little more jealous of the girls giving the blow jobs than of the guys receiving them.
I kept jerking off to the picture of the chick with a dick in the red bikini, finding it strangely fascinating and weirdly exhilarating. I found that there's a whole genre of art dealing with chicks with dicks called futanari. I was hooked. I found a site called futanaria that had clips of real chicks with fake but semi-believable dicks strapped on, sucking and jerking each other off. From there I graduated to shemale porn.
Next thing I knew I was jerking off to a picture of a cock!
I still jerk off to girls, big tits, curves, makeup. Some of them just look so good, but I also find I'm strangely drawn to, and excited by, videos of guys jerking off, pictures of stiff dicks, jealous of girls giving blow jobs, oddly aroused and excited by the idea of giving a hand job or blow job, imagining the taste and feeling of having a big, hard cock in my mouth, and watching sissy hypno shit at anna malice website and loving it.
Anyway, I'm not complaining. I think it's great to be interested in more things, and turned on by more things, and I figure I'm just somewhere on the grey scale between straight and gay and it doesn't really matter which way I go because neither is wrong. I just wonder if anyone else has experienced something similar.
