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I'm a 44yo, good looking, professional, bisexual who is twice divorced - no kids. When I was in middle school my 22 year old cousin talked me into sucking his cock. He came over after he left his job to see I had diner, did my homework and was in bed by 8PM - my parents were at a religious conference out of town and not expected back until midnight. For the life of me I do not recall how it started but I was sitting on my bed while he stood at the side and his (curved to the right) cock was in my mouth. I know he would move my head with his hand so his cock wouldn't go into the jaw with each thrust. Then he pushed to it the back and held my head on his cock as he shot down my throat - I was gagging and beginning to choked. After I regained my composure he told me to lick the sides and top to clean it off, and lick his balls. My first time was not an unpleasant experience, but not one I wanted to repeat. I didn't know what to expect as he knew I had never had sex - even beat off with a buddy.
My parents were well known and respected musicians/singers in multi-denominational circles in the tri-state area. Being left with a baby sitter was no uncommon, however, this was the first time my cousin was asked. Since his parents lived a couple of miles away and he was just home from 4 years in the military waiting on winter term to start college, he was the most likely candidate. I was old enough, capable and stayed by myself a lot, so my cousin was more to insure I ate diner, was in bed on time and not asleep alone in the house for hours before my parents arrived. If they were too far to drive in, I went with them or slept at my grandparents.
The next time my cousin looked out for me we went for pizza and a movie. Sitting on the back row, with no one on the back rows, he reached for me right hand and placed it on his crotch - his cock was already hard. He held his open palm on top of my hand... which was on his cock moving it back and forth. Finally he moved his hand and I continued rubbing his hard cock. The movie was not over but we left and as soon as we got in his car he told me to sit back with my head close to the head rest. He unzipped his cock and told me to slowly slide down in the seat, so no one would realize my head was disappearing. Once my head was down and my ass in the floor board he told me to come suck his cock. In the movie theatre parking lot...I sucked his cock the second time. This time because of my position his cock never went into my jaw but down my throat. He talked some nasty crap this time as he held my head hunch fucking my mouth. Not sure if it was the position or the talking, but I was enjoying sucking his cock and was loving feeling it in my mouth. He asked me if I wanted his cum and I shock my head no. So he pulled my head up by my hair as he put his other hand around his cock. I noticed a white rag on his stomach as he blew his load on the rag. That was the first time I ever saw another mans cum. I slowly slide back and up into the seat as he adjusted his shorts and we headed home, where this time, he was to spend the night.
We went home and watched TV before he told me to get my shower and head to bed. While in the shower the door slide back and he stepped in naked pushing my to my knees. I sucked his cock some more only this time he pulled me up and hit his knees taking my cock into his mouth. I no more than got it in his mouth and I busted a nutt so hard I was weak in my knees. That night I lost my ass cherry and over the next few years learned to rim, suck and fuck and the most important lesson he taught me, "because you like men is no reason to act like a women." That was my introduction for gay sex and it expanded to his brother and their cousin on their dad's side. My first pussy was in a 3 way with my two cousins and we were openly bi with that hooker. For my 18th birthday I had an orgy with my two cousins, their dad, their paternal cousin and his brother-in-law. I was in college before I had gay sex with anyone other than family, or their other family.
Sex with non consenting adults is wrong and should not happen. Does it happen? Yes. It happened to me, and with relatives. Did it define my life? No. Did I repeat the same? No. Actually, I prefer the a well experienced sexual partner. Did it cause my divorces? Perhaps, because I like variety in my sex life - prefer experience in many different sexual activities - I am a hung, bull, bi-swinger. Does anyone in the family know? Absolutely not. Am I the only one who has experience with relatives. Absolutely not. It is a fact of life (straight and gay) recorded in the oldest documents of mankind's history. Sex with non consenting adults is wrong. Straight, bi or swinger sex with consenting adults is wonderful - even when its relatives.