Everything about my life is a sham. I'm married, but don't want to be. I got married because society said back when I married, you have to be hetro and in a long term marriage to be successful. How fucking wrong that is and how wrong I was.
I often meet other married men who are in the same situation as myself, and have the most wonderful fulfilling sex. I enjoy kissing men, mutual masturbation and oral sex. Sometimes I'm the dominant top and adore fucking a guys tight arsehole. Other times and dependant on whom I'm with, I like nothing more than to have a guys cock deep inside my arse.
My wife actually thinks because I no longer act "macho" I'm not he man I used to be. She could not be more wrong. Indeed only last month I put right two men who thought they could beat on a smaller man. Their mistake was thinking just like my wife, men who don't show aggression initially, aren't capable of looking after themselves.
What's even more remarkable about last months episode was, one of the men who tried to be tough, a few days later was taking my cock up his very eager and willing arse.
The long term relationship I've just had with a married man, only finished because he and his wife moved because of his wife's illness.
On reflection, I genuinely think I'm going to have to decide, who and what I want to be. Unhappy with my wife, who's a complete fruit loop. Or go my own way in this one and only life and be happy with a guy I've recently met, who I know will love me for who I am.
decision time I think.