If being gay is so "unnatural" then why does it make me feel so good and accepted?

First I find Gay Sex means different things to different people. For me, I find the stigma and negative views of being Gay exciting, In fact, I know most people find the term 'homosexual' insulting, abusive and object to its use, I find it best describes what and who I am, other negatives I like being called are Faggot, Queer, Queen, Cock Sucker, to me these derogatory terms turn me on. Is it natural, probably not, but for me absolutely, I would even love to be tattooed with anyone of those words, it definitely describes my sexual desires.
The day I realized I was gay was definitely an eye opener, it felt like I was finally getting that something I didn't even know I was missing. That day I truly found out sex was truly fun, meaningful and finally enjoyable, really enjoyable. But I still find Gay sex is also frustrating, confusing and it can hurt, not only physically, but emotionally. So why does Gay sex make me feel so good and accepted!
It all began in 2006, after driving David home, he pestered me until I agreed to come down for a drink. In his apartment I sat on his couch while he got me what was the first of many very strong Rum and Coke.
I honestly could not remember what happened, but all I know when I woke up it was late the next day, I was in bed completely naked and alone. For a while I thought I was at home, I was confused and still drunk. My heart started racing, as I realized I was still at David's, I was confused, I felt nauseous and tried to remember.
My head was spinning, I wanted to throw up, and my bum was sore. I finally sat up, looked around for my clothes, nothing. David had left a small pink robe for me. I staggered to the door, opened it and David was sitting in his robe watching TV.
Morning sunshine, David greeted me, Wow, you were so drunk and totally horny last night, I was more than pleasantly surprised you swing that way! My heart sank, what happened I asked? Go clean up and we"ll talk.
I had a long shower, got out and there was only small towels and David took the robe so I had no choice but to come back totally naked.
Nervously I walked back to the living room, David was still sitting there with a smirk on his face, Bruce, could you imagine what people at work would say if they found out we are gay lovers. So I guess you have no choice, while your wife is away your going to be my bottom bitch and please me like you so willing did last night.
Needlessly to say I was scared, I didn't know if David would tell anyone, what choice did I have, he promised he would release me when the wife returned. David was very confident and dominant and knew he had me by the balls.
Again I felt like throwing up, I was so nervous, it felt like nothing I had ever experienced before, I felt trapped, it's like David had planned this all along.
David then opened his robe, exposing himself to me, it was like a switch was turned on, I felt hot, my heart started pounding like never before, and I got so hard it hurt. David ordered me to sit beside him, as I moved toward him, I got this funny feeling, I was horny.
As I sat beside him, I started feeling comfortable, all of a sudden I needed to kiss him, I kissed David with so much passion, it was like making out for the first time, and I guess it was, homosexually that is.
David kissed me back so aggressively that it was like we were long time lovers. "Bruce, I've always had a crush on you ever since we worked together at AMR, I knew you were gay back then, I'm so glad we are together now." David passionately whispered to me
Truly it felt so wonderful kissing him, and then I moved my way down his big beautiful body, kissing and tasting him as I made my way to his rock hard manhood, as I kneeled before David looking at his gorgeous hard penis, I just took time to admire and take in what was happening, it was like maybe this was my true calling, to be a gay bottom, I was no longer frightened or scared.
I wanted to seductively and sexually please David, a man,I needed so badly to feel his manhood in my mouth, to let him mount me, I went from being what I always thought was straight, to GAY overnight!
David taught me so much in the months we had become GAY Lovers, the ultimate pleasure of two naked horny men, no longer can I ignore my homosexual feelings, my gay urges, my true self, I am gayBruce and I am 100% pure GAY!