When I was 12 I was rayped. It was a 15 year old boy who had been held back two years and was a grade ahead of me in middle school. He was cute and asked me out on a date and I said yes but then he started to force himself on me and I said no and he ignored me and just rammed his way inside me. I was scared but then shocked that it didn't hurt nearly as much as I thought it would. Once he got past my hymen he slowed down and let me catch my breath then just fucked me. I was shocked even more when I realized that I was enjoying it. Somehow I just became incredibly horny and then I didn't want him to stop but he came in me then rolled off. The funny thing is he thought I was upset from being rayped but in reality I was upset that he stopped rayping me. He was done in about 5 minutes and I could have gone an hour.

So what is my wish and dream? I wish I didn't love being rayped so much. After that first time I pretty much spread a rumor that any boy in school could raype me and I wouldn't rat them out. Much to my regret only three guys actually acted on this rumor.

Now I'm 19 and I frequently place personal ads looking for strange guys to come to me place and just do me. You'd think a reasonably attractive 19 year old girl (I don't have super model looks but I think I look pretty good, nice hair and big tits) would have no problem getting guys to take her but that's just not the case. I even went to a motorcycle rally where there were tons of biker gangs all hanging out and pretty much let it known what I wanted and only two guys out of thousands took me up on my offer. I wanted to be passed around like the slut I am and I just couldn't get them to gang raype me which is my ultimate fantasy. Ok so my real wish is to be gang rayped every night forever but I'd settle for it to just happen at least once or for me to just stop craving it.