Im nearing 30, and my only sexual experience with a girl was in a gangbang. I fear I will never find love. I could remember during highschool, guys would talk about girls and how big of a slut they were. They would treat them so poorly yet they always flocked them in the end. I treated them as politely as I could. I wouldn't call my self handsome, nor ugly. I was not fat, nor skinny. The only thing is that I am asian. I have been asked out on dates throughout my life but they were all asians. I turned them all down. I have no idea why, but i dont find asian girls to be pretty.

Anyways, I was on the senior boys basketball team in my grade 11 year. When we won cities, the team threw a party. It was at the "coolest" guy's house. It was my first party, I expected there to be booze and girls according to their stories. I turned up to find 12 guys high on weed and drunk on cheep liqour. I was about to leave when the "cool" guy came out of a room, no pants on. I was surprised, almost scared because I first thought there was some man on man interaction going on. He said next before throwing a condom down on the couch. In a flash one guy snatched it and scurried into the room. Even with the music on, I could hear some loud slaps and groans. When he opened the door, I leaned in to see a small browned hair girl. Before i could react two teamates pushed passed and shut the door in my face.

Finally after 1 hour or so, I was still catering my 1st can of beer. Most guys were wasted all over the house. Hardly even awake. I was the very last guy. The door opened and he scattered out. I quickly went in and locked the door. I almost jumped at the sight of my bare feet squishing on a couple condoms. The sheets had all fallen off the bed. The girl still facing away layed there. I unbuckled and hopped on the bed. Only one word was said, :"condom". I instantly knew who it was. A sweet faced girl in my math. She was cute and I even asked her out, only to be shot down with "im not allowed to date" Clearly that was a lie as she laid here. I doubt she even was high as I didnt even see her leave the room for a drink or smoke. I flipped her over to see her pussy. It was swollen, pink, and very wet. I slipped in, without a condom. I spent the next few minuted awkwardly humping her as I got my tongue inside hers. I came inside her. I pulled out, leaving my cum to leak out. Within 10 minutes, I had her in a doggy position, her ass already red from slaps. I left a second load on her face this time. At the end of the party, they were all passed out before I was ready to leave. Planning on sneaking out but then I decided for a stop in the bedroom again. She was still there, in nothing but a pink thong this time. Now she wasa bit drunk. She gave me a blowjob before she rode me.

I saw her at school, as iff nothing changed. I seriously doubt not using a condom if she seemed so normal about this.