my fater was killed when i was 3-4....my mother has allways been regarded as
beautiful . i have brothers and a sister, and when i was was in my early teens she introduced us to a man named harvey who was wealthy and quite a nice bloke.
one day i was loking in her bed room for my up coming birthday presents, but i found a stash load of poloroid photos of my mother in lingerie and naked shots .
it was obvious that the photo shots were taken by a 3rd party.
a few months later i i found another stash of pics with many ppl involved. i saw my mother with harvey naked and other men. i am now 40 and can not get these images out my mind.i have never spoken about this to other ppl..but knowing that my mother was either a prostitute or a good time girl that liked lots of sex with many men makes me feel weird...i now search for girls/women that remind me of her, short black hair cut in a bob..slim and tanned,i am struggling and wish i'd never found what i found.
is it wrong to love your mothers form in a sexual way, or how i remember the poloroid photo's ??