I finally lived out the major sexual fantasy of my life this week- to be fucked by a man, a big, muscular, black man, who made me feel totally emasculated, feminine, and submissive.

I am a white male btw, and this fantasy had been growing in my mind for years. First just watching interracial porn, then imagining I was the girl, then reading stories about sissified white guys being fucked by black guys, then watching actual girly white men/boys having sex with big black men, then buying dildos to use on myself and bras & panties to dress up in.
It was about a month ago I finally took the plunge to live it out for real.

I set up an account on a dating site and looked around for a guy who wanted this sort of thing. I found them.
I found one guy who was perfect- black, 6' 3" (I'm 5' 11" myself, so I wanted a guy taller than me to make me feel small and submissive), and unbelievably muscular. He replied to my message.

We chatted for a couple of weeks, discussing what we both wanted. He was basically straight but knew there were lots of white guys like me who would love nothing more than to be a black man's feminine bitch, and he said they were sometimes better to fuck than women cos they loved it so much. But he wanted me to be utterly feminine and submissive to him- lingerie, long hair/wig, everything. He also wanted to not have to use a condom, so he made me prove I was infection-free.

I could hardly believe I was actually doing this. I spent the next week in a state of constant arousal and anxiety. I got myself tested at the clinic and I was fine- so was he. I went shopping (far from where I live) for lingerie that fitted me (I have a fairly womanly figure with slight shoulder, slim hips, and a full round ass. Plenty of people have said if I was a woman I could be proud of my ass), and a decent blonde wig.
He also wanted me hairless, so I booked myself a session at a salon to give me baby smooth skin.

The friday evening came when I was to go to him. I was to meet him at his flat- a small but quite swanky place. I had never been so nervous in my life when I got to his front door. I didn't have my wig or makeup on, but underneath my clothes I already had my lingerie on. He opened the door and I was greeted by one of the biggest, most masculine black men I had ever seen. He smiled and said come in.

As we had agreed, I was first shown to his bathroom so I could finish getting myself ready- applying my makeup, my wig, my fishnet stockings, etc. I looked at myself in the mirror and couldn't believe how feminine I looked. When I came out, he had the living room light dimmed and drinks ready for us both.
Shaking, I daintily walked over to the sofa and sat next to him.

We chatted, and drank, and he was being smooth with me the way I'd seen alpha males do with women loads of times. He started touching my knee and stroking my legs. He asked me to sit on his lap. My heart was in my throat as I did, and I closed my eyes. The next thing I knew, his lips were on mine and he was kissing me. I melted.

He spent about twenty minutes just gently groping my body and kissing my face, my ears, and my neck and shoulders. I could feel his large erection under my cheeks. He moved me to his side and told me to unzip his trousers and take his cock out. I fumbled with his zipper and reached in to pull it out. I felt the large, warm, fleshy, semi-hard organ in my fingers and produced it for me to see.
Without even thinking I slowly brought my head down and took it in my mouth, doing what I had been fantasising about for years.
I actually had a large black penis in my mouth.

I sucked and pleasured him for about ten minutes with his hands on my head, before he started moaning and saying he was close. I sucked even harder, knowing I was about to get my first ever taste of cum.
He moaned loudly and bucked his hips up a bit and I felt hot gloopy liquid spurt in my mouth, filling it after the third spurt. I remember closing my lips tightly around his cock so none of it leaked out. And then I gulped it all down.

Pulling mouth off his still rock-hard erection, he smiled satisfied at me. He asked me how his black dick and sperm tasted. I told him the truth- that it was heaven. I even had a little on my chin which he told me to wipe and swallow.

He then led me to his bedroom. He sat on the end of his bed and told me to slowly strip and dance in front of him. I felt my womanly body with my hands as I gyrated for his viewing pleasure, slowly removing my bra to reveal my protruding, sensitive, pink nipples. I removed my panties to reveal my pale, round, baby-smooth ass, and my small 5" 'clit'. In the meantime, he was taking off his clothes, and I saw his dark, muscular body.
He made me show him my ass and to wiggle it for him as he groped and squeezed it. I was unbelievably horny at this point and would happily have done anything he asked. I'd have signed a contract to be his sex slave for the rest of my life if he'd produced it.

He turned me around and brought me close to him, pulling me by my ass cheeks so he could begin kissing and sucking my 'tits'. He knew from our discussions that this was the thing that made me feel the most feminine and turned on, my sensitive nipples- or boobs/tits as he said they now to be called. I was moaning like a whore now.

He then told me to lie down on the bed with my legs up and spread. My 'pussy' was exposed to him. He produced some warm lubricant and I felt him start pushing his lubed up finger into my virgin hole, while moving his head up to continue sucking on my titties. I was in sexual ecstasy.

Eventually, he removed his fingers, and position his large body over the top of me. He told me to pull my knees right up to my face and spread my thighs as wide apart as I could. He told me he was about to make a woman forever.
I felt the tip of his cock touch my asshole. And then he pushed inside me.
I gasped and tensed up, even though he only put an inch in me. He was very large and the pain was immediate. He took a good ten or fifteen minutes gradually working himself gently into me, before I felt his hips touch mine and he pressed his whole body into me. His entire length was now inside my ass pussy.
He started kissing me as he slowly began to fuck me. My penis was semi hard the whole time and I felt constantly on the edge of cumming, until after about half an hour of fucking I was pushed over the edge of my first overwhelming submissive feminine experience, and I spurted over my tummy and chest.
He then started fucking me harder, really slamming into me. With a massive groan, he shouted that he was cumming, and I felt the most degrading, unmasculine feeling in the whole world- his huge penis spurting ribbon after ribbon of jizz inside my body.

He lay on top of me to catch his breath, and eventually pulled out of me. I could feel his semen swilling slightly in my rectum. I couldn't believe it.
We fucked once more that night, before I left in the morning a totally changed person. He told me I was his bitch now and that he expected me to satisfy whenever he wanted, but that he had a couple of other sissies he used as well, not to mention plenty of women, so I wouldn't have to answer booty calls every day.
I feel like I'm almost not a man anymore, and not even sure I want to be. It was the most incredible experience of my life.