She has told me before he was the "biggest" guy she ever had sex with, so we used to roleplay all the time about what it would be like to have sex with him again, what his size would feel like, how often he would get her to climax....I want that to happen for her in real life SO bad.
About 2 years ago we bought a large dildo and named it 'Paul" after the boyfriend. She will call out his name as I use it on her, and you can just see how her body lights up when she has more size inside her.
After she and I have had sex, I will go down on her and pretend its Pauls cum I am eating - we both get into talking about me doing that.
Twice this past year, the first time was on my birthday, she called Paul and told him I was not home and she was in a mood. They ended up having phone sex as I listened and pushed the sex toy in and out of her. To hear my wife tell another man that she misses his cock and thinks about it all the time was beyond exciting.
BUT - for now, thats as far as my wife is willing to take things. Which drives me crazy.
I am obsessed about sharing her, and ideally it would be with Paul but at this point I dont care who it is.
I want her to have a bigger cock inside her, I want to see her let go and really enjoy another mans loving. And yes, I confess that I would love to go down on her afterwards as well.
She is so hung up on the right/wrong of having sex with someone outside of our marriage - she says she feels guilty enough for the phone sex she has had with Paul - like she is leading him on. But in a way, she is kind of teasing me too since she knows I would give anything for her to have sex with another guy sometime.
What can I do?


