My mother OD'd when I was 8 and after living with my grandmother for two years was sent to live with Gwen who was my grandmothers step daughter. I was only in 5th grade and for the next 5 years this sadistic woman not only tramatized me but I believe she actually got enjoyment out of hurting me and humiliating me. I was totally petrified of her within the first few months and believe she took me in to have someone to dominate which she did until I was 15. Gwen I think was about 40 when I moved in with her and although she had a boyfreind I am almost certain she had to be bisexual. Over those years there were about 8 different women who stayed over for a night and often a few days or more. Her boyfreind Larry stayed over on weekends sometimes but she always seemed to have more female friends especially Heather, who was probably her closest friend and I think now was one of her lovers. Gwen was a tough looking woman and immediately scared me to death just by the way she spoke and ordered me around. I was 10 years old and capable of showering and bathing myself yet Gwen, right from the beginning, always came in the bathroom to make sure I was clean. I had to stand in front of her naked first holding up my feet and then she would make me bend and open up the cheeks of my butt. The first few months there was many times she made me shower over again telling me I didn't clean myself properly and just stand there watching me. The first time she beat me I wasn't even there 2 months and she did it in front of her boyfriend making me strip naked first. She always beat me with a belt sometimes dr**ed over the sofa and sometimes over my bed. She wouls also make me hold my ankles bend over and the pain was horrific. I was so afraid of her I can't discribe it. There were several times she had Larry whip me and oddly he didn't hit me as hard as Gwen alwways did.

As time went on things got worse and when I think about it now I think I was brain washed to a certain extent. It didn't matter who was at the house if Gwen decided to beat me. I think I was spanked at least once or twice a month during those 5 years in front of Larry, Heather and many other woman who were there at the time. She even brought these women into the bathroom making me prove I was clean and I think she did this solely to humiliate me. The only privacy I had was was when I went to bed at night since I had to shower every night after dinner and when I came out of the shower I always had to show her I was completely clean. She never did anything close to sexual with me but managed to embarrass me so many times I could never forgive her. Even when I was a teenager and had been humiliated so many times in front of Larry and the other women it was just as embarrassing as the first time. When I was 15 Gwen had a stroke and because of my grandmothers health spent the next few years in a group home. I just saw in the paper last week that Gwen died and her funeral was last Tuesday, which I didn't attend.