Straight Male / 23
I'm attracted to my ex fiancée's mother and it's getting steadily worse. This makes me feel guilty for many reasons, for one, she's married, and her husband is a great friend to me. Also, I am currently in another relationship with a great woman who I would never wish to hurt.
The attraction probably started while I was still with my ex, her mother and I have a scary amount of common personality traits, quirks and interests, and I would occasionally have dreams about seeing her naked, but I dismissed it as nothing noteworthy. My fiancée left me a couple years ago, I was in the middle of beauty school and I was working hard to juggle school, work and my relationship, but evidently not hard enough. She found another boy and left me for him, and I was devastated. My heart was broken, I felt alone, unappreciated, and hopeless, but what helped me was that her parents and I had grown close and they were a great comfort to me through it all.
Now her mother owns a salon, and when I started beauty school, it was already determined that I would go work at her salon, and luckily for me, she kept the offer open after the breakup,so I've been working with my ex's mother for the past year and a half. I noticed after the breakup that I was really drawn to the older women at the school. The girls my age just annoyed me, but the women in their late 20's to late 40's held themselves different than younger women and this was a great turn on. I also love wide hips, thick thighs and an all around softer physique, most girls in their early 20's try so hard to deny those traits.
My current girlfriend is 36, very gifted, definitely a 10 for me. Young at heart, nice tits, and a great ass and is very open minded sexually. All my sexual fetishes that I was too scared to admit have become a reality with her, we have anal sex on a regular basis, she likes to pleasure me with her tits and her ass, and she will sometimes pose for me while I jerk off if we don't have much time, and through her I've discovered that I love analingus, never would have guessed I was an ass eater, but hey, my point is, I'm not sexually deprived.
Now, my ex's mother, she's 45 now, but she definitely doesn't look it, very pretty, somewhat flighty, clumsy, forgetful, etc. traits that I also share. She's rather short, has these nice wide hips, very thick thighs, and her booty is probably 50" around or bigger. Her top half is rather petit, however, small waist and somewhat small breasts, she's a definite pear shape, and I never found that hot until her. It's become ridiculous, at first I would catch myself peaking at her butt now and then, but I went on some hikes and some runs with her and her husband and seeing her in tight form fitting pants sparked something in me. I want her ass so badly. I love going to her house after work, because the first thing she does is change into her pajamas and I always end up watching her big ass bounce around while she walks. I watch her ass all the time. When she wears a lower shirt I cant help but to look at her tits. She doesn't like to wear underwear, and her nice big ass loves to try to peak out whenever she leans over to shampoo someones hair or when she gets on all fours to clean. It's gotten to the point where I have taken pictures of her when she's bending over and emailed them to myself so I can jerk off to her. I never get off so quick to anything else.
I have a fantasy where she asks me why I'm so attracted to older women and I tell her why, she asks if I found her attractive and I ask her why she asks. She says that she finds me attractive and tells me she feels guilty about it because she's married, and because I used to date her daughter and that she feels dirty for having and attraction to someone who is like a son to her. I console her and tell her she isn't odd and that I find her attractive as well. We agree not to act on our feelings, we wouldn't wish to hurt our significant others, but we quickly fins that it's not so easy to keep away from each other now that we've confessed. We make compromises at first, no physical contact, only dirty texts and pictures, but that only escalates and we begin doing on top of the clothes stuff and then we experiment with hand jobs and fingering which leads to oral sex with clothes on. Finally we agree to take the clothes off. She's nervous because she's older, but we undress and I tell her she's beautiful, and we begin oral sex. Looking down at her I can only focus on her big beautiful ass pointed away from me and this drives me crazy. I ask if I can see it and she reluctantly agrees. At that point I lose control and do all the things to her ass I can think off. Lick it, finger it, caress her ass cheeks and worship it. And despite what we agreed on, we have sex without a thought, I would come right away no doubt, this would leave her hungry for more and it would become a regular occurrence. Eventually my goal would be to claim her ass.
I also have a fantasy where she and her husband go out of town and she asks me to house sit for them, and "accidentally" leaves a pair of her panties in the guest bed or on the dryer. Anyway, I love my girlfriend, but there has been more than one occasion where these fantasies have gotten me off when I was having a hard time. I doubt anything will come of these desires, I doubt it would be worth the guilt anyway. Which is why I'm confessing. I'm hoping that I can get this all off my chest and leave it behind, it would be terrible to have to go my whole life with these desires only growing stronger with no relief.
The attraction probably started while I was still with my ex, her mother and I have a scary amount of common personality traits, quirks and interests, and I would occasionally have dreams about seeing her naked, but I dismissed it as nothing noteworthy. My fiancée left me a couple years ago, I was in the middle of beauty school and I was working hard to juggle school, work and my relationship, but evidently not hard enough. She found another boy and left me for him, and I was devastated. My heart was broken, I felt alone, unappreciated, and hopeless, but what helped me was that her parents and I had grown close and they were a great comfort to me through it all.
Now her mother owns a salon, and when I started beauty school, it was already determined that I would go work at her salon, and luckily for me, she kept the offer open after the breakup,so I've been working with my ex's mother for the past year and a half. I noticed after the breakup that I was really drawn to the older women at the school. The girls my age just annoyed me, but the women in their late 20's to late 40's held themselves different than younger women and this was a great turn on. I also love wide hips, thick thighs and an all around softer physique, most girls in their early 20's try so hard to deny those traits.
My current girlfriend is 36, very gifted, definitely a 10 for me. Young at heart, nice tits, and a great ass and is very open minded sexually. All my sexual fetishes that I was too scared to admit have become a reality with her, we have anal sex on a regular basis, she likes to pleasure me with her tits and her ass, and she will sometimes pose for me while I jerk off if we don't have much time, and through her I've discovered that I love analingus, never would have guessed I was an ass eater, but hey, my point is, I'm not sexually deprived.
Now, my ex's mother, she's 45 now, but she definitely doesn't look it, very pretty, somewhat flighty, clumsy, forgetful, etc. traits that I also share. She's rather short, has these nice wide hips, very thick thighs, and her booty is probably 50" around or bigger. Her top half is rather petit, however, small waist and somewhat small breasts, she's a definite pear shape, and I never found that hot until her. It's become ridiculous, at first I would catch myself peaking at her butt now and then, but I went on some hikes and some runs with her and her husband and seeing her in tight form fitting pants sparked something in me. I want her ass so badly. I love going to her house after work, because the first thing she does is change into her pajamas and I always end up watching her big ass bounce around while she walks. I watch her ass all the time. When she wears a lower shirt I cant help but to look at her tits. She doesn't like to wear underwear, and her nice big ass loves to try to peak out whenever she leans over to shampoo someones hair or when she gets on all fours to clean. It's gotten to the point where I have taken pictures of her when she's bending over and emailed them to myself so I can jerk off to her. I never get off so quick to anything else.
I have a fantasy where she asks me why I'm so attracted to older women and I tell her why, she asks if I found her attractive and I ask her why she asks. She says that she finds me attractive and tells me she feels guilty about it because she's married, and because I used to date her daughter and that she feels dirty for having and attraction to someone who is like a son to her. I console her and tell her she isn't odd and that I find her attractive as well. We agree not to act on our feelings, we wouldn't wish to hurt our significant others, but we quickly fins that it's not so easy to keep away from each other now that we've confessed. We make compromises at first, no physical contact, only dirty texts and pictures, but that only escalates and we begin doing on top of the clothes stuff and then we experiment with hand jobs and fingering which leads to oral sex with clothes on. Finally we agree to take the clothes off. She's nervous because she's older, but we undress and I tell her she's beautiful, and we begin oral sex. Looking down at her I can only focus on her big beautiful ass pointed away from me and this drives me crazy. I ask if I can see it and she reluctantly agrees. At that point I lose control and do all the things to her ass I can think off. Lick it, finger it, caress her ass cheeks and worship it. And despite what we agreed on, we have sex without a thought, I would come right away no doubt, this would leave her hungry for more and it would become a regular occurrence. Eventually my goal would be to claim her ass.
I also have a fantasy where she and her husband go out of town and she asks me to house sit for them, and "accidentally" leaves a pair of her panties in the guest bed or on the dryer. Anyway, I love my girlfriend, but there has been more than one occasion where these fantasies have gotten me off when I was having a hard time. I doubt anything will come of these desires, I doubt it would be worth the guilt anyway. Which is why I'm confessing. I'm hoping that I can get this all off my chest and leave it behind, it would be terrible to have to go my whole life with these desires only growing stronger with no relief.
