I feel ashamed and guilty for what I have been doing, but on the other hand I cant deny how exciting things have been for me the past few months.

I have been divorced for 2 years now. I have 1 daughter, Morgan, who is away at college. My sex life with my ex husband was aweful - and up until now, the "single" life for me was not much better. I would joke with myself that my sex toys were my boyfriends...lol
Anyhow - my daughter broke up with her boyfriend before she left for school this year. They had been dating almost 2 years, and I actually felt like Eric might be the one for her. They just seemed so happy together. She never told me the real reason she broke up with him, just that it was a combination of a lot of little things.
About a week after she left for school, I ran into Eric as I was leaving te grocery store. He hugged me and we started talk..and talk...and talk. He confided in me that he did cheat on Morgan once, and he felt aweful about it, but Morgan would never forgive him. Eric and I were tlaking about things for so long, I got worried that all my frozen foods I boutht would melt, and since I only lived 5 minutes from the store, I told him he could follow me and we could continue our conversation there.
Never in a million years did I think it would be anything more than just talking like we were doing in the parking lot.
But as soon we were alone in my apartment, my heart just started to race. I found myslef all flustered and even flirting a little with Eric. I kept telling myself "this is crazy!" and reminded myself that I am old enough to me his mother, but somehow there were sparks there. And Eric felt them too.
I remember this so well - we were in the kitchen, and he stood real close to me. He asked "what would happen if I kissed you right now?". Instead of saying no - or telling him we shouldn't, I said "lets find out". And we kissed. First it was soft and careful, then we could not open our mouths wide enough or kiss each other deep enough. Who he was, our age difference, none of that mattered. I felt his hands go inside my blouse, and soon he was unbuttoning me. My top and bra were off in no time, and Eric absolutely went wild giving my breasts a work out.
We ended up in my bedroom, and had sex for almost 2 hours that first day. Eric is very well-endowed, and I was actually a little jealous of my daughter for having a boyfirend with such a large size. And his cock hit me in all the right places...omg...my body just lit up. I can honestly say that was the most intense sex I had ever had in my life. This boy was more of a man in bed than my ex ever was.
That was the start of my affair with Morgans boyfriend. In the past 3 months, we have had sex probably over 100 times. We cannot get enough of each other.
Eric has talked me into doing some kinky things - like having me call Morgan a couple times as we were having sex, and on my birthday he showed up with a friend to give me a MfM experience since he knew it was my number 1 fantasy.
He will sometimes get into talking about how sex is so much better with me than it was with my daughter, or how he likes my tits better, or how my pussy handles his cock better. I tell him I dont like hearing that stuff, but secretly it IS kind of flattering. I turn on a 21 year old kid!
We both agreed Morgan can never know....and Eric will only come over when she is away. What is sad, is as much as I miss my daughter and I am looking forward to seeing her like on Thanksgiving coming up, part of me knows I will be missing Eric the entire time she is here. I could make love to this boy every day for years, and I doubt it would ever get old. It is so neat when he sleeps over and we wake up and make love first thing in the morning. I want that every day!!

Part of me says that he and I are both adults, so we should not have to hide our feelings. But - I also know Morgan would be so upset with me if she found out.

Not sure what to do - I just know Eric is coming over tonight, and I cant wait.