I am a sophomore at college and I return home a few times a year. Of course I came back this past weekend for Thanksgiving which was nice. I am an only child, my mom had me when she was 22, so she is 41 now.
I dont know when it happened, but when I came home this past weekend, I noticed that she is a very good looking woman. I never, ever thought about her that way before, but something changed. Somehow she changed from being my "mom" - to being a woman with a hot body.
When did THAT happen??
Of course the more I tried to put those thoughts out of my mind, the more they were IN my mind.
We hosted a dinner party on Saturday, and afterwards my mom was tired and wiped out from doing all the cooking and running around so much. She was sitting on the sofa in the living room having a glass of wine, and my dad was in the other room watching sports. I decided to offer my mom a massage, which she said would be wonderful. She had changed into sweats and a tee shirt after the company left, so I stood behind her and rubbed her shoulders. OMG - I got turned on, just by rubbing my moms shoulders! I found myself looking down her shirt, she had no bra on, and I could see so much of her breasts. I wanted to feel them SO bad.
I will admit I got a hard on just by rubbing her and looking down her shirt. I ended up having to stop and going to my bedroom to take care of my problem. I will admit, and my confession is, that I masturbated thinking about my moms body. Even when I left on Sunday, and she gave me a hug goodbye, I found myself pulling her closer in, just to feel more of her upper body pressed into me. If only she knew I was thinking it was a sexual hug, and not just a goodbye hug.
Why am I having these thoughts all of a sudden?
What would have happened if I reached down and cupped one of her boobs during the massage?
How can I let my mom know that I love it when she wears revealing tops, without freaking her out?
How can I tell her that I think she has a great body, without sounding like a weirdo?
Sorry for the questions....I just wanted to vent a bit.
But I am so embarassed at the thoughts I have been having, and the daydreams about my mom....omg...its almost impossible to study.
I am already looking forward to winter break coming up in a couple weeks.


