When I was going through my divorce I started to drink alot and quickly became a blackout and then pass out cold drunk. My husband left me with 6 children and no child support and alimony. During my binge drinking I was finding myself waking up in different places throughout the house having no idea how I got there. One day I was cleaning my preteen age son's bedroom and I found between the mattresses pictures of me completely naked and some of them were very close up pictures of my naked body. Some pictures had just my boobs and vagina and some I was spread eagle and the pictures were of my vagina and labia. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. How did my son get this pictures of me and when. I went through his computer and found hundreds of pictures and many videos. In some of the videos my sons penis was in my mouth and others had his penis inside of my vagina. I watched videos of my preteen son having sex with me. I was shocked at how many of these videos and pictures he had made. I didn't know what to do or how to handle this. I decided to make believe that I was getting drunk that night but I had no intention of drinking because my plan was to catch him in the act of violating me. That night I acted as if I was drunk and stumbled into my bedroom and fell across the bed like I was passed out. After about 30 minutes my son came into my bedroom and called my name while pushing on my shoulder but I didn't move or react. Then he started sliding his hands down my panties and touching my pubic hair. I never thought about it but the truth was I was getting wet with excitement as he was doing it. I still pretend like I was asleep when he started to finger me and I moaned really loudly. To make a long story short I never let him know I was awake at the time and I just lied there while my son touched and played with my body.