I saw Marge over the Christmas holidsys for the first time in over 20 years. I haven't been back home for a number of years and my sister talked me into going to a community Christmas party. She is 81 now, senile and didn't remember who I was at first. She was one of my mothers best friends years ago and when I was a kid I lived with her for close to three years. Her daughter wasn't there and I think Jeanie must be in her 50's by now. I was only 11 when I had to move in with them because of serious family problems which I don't want to think about. While living with Marge and Jeanie those years I beleive now I was sexually abused especially by Jeanie who was considerably older than I. There was no such thing as privacy in that house and the first week I was there was forced by Marge to undress in front of her. She claimed to be a clean freak and as I stood naked in front of her she made me bend over to inspect my anus, made me wipe myself with a tissue to prove I was clean there. I was so embarrassed the first time I was actually shaking and immediately afraid of her. What made things worse was a day or two later I was talking to my mother on the phone and Marge spoke to her also. Marge bluntly told my mother what she had done telling her flat out she made me undress. Marge put me back on the phone and my mother just told me to be nice to Marge and obey her. Within the first few weeks I was visually inspected a few times a week not only by Marge but also by Jeanie which made things more humiliating. They began doing it mostly after I showered and always made me bend over an spread my cheeks apart. Then Marge began making me get an enema every two months, sometimes a reagular enema but sometimes just one of those bottled fleets enemas. The worst thing is Jeanie also did it to me or just stood there as Marge did. When I think about those years I do believe it was sexual abuse but at the same time they never touched me in a sexual way and never touch my genitals. It was more like they only wanted to see me naked and enjoyed humiliating me. I was young an naive and think now I was intimadated by both of them. Things got worse over time and Jeanie began inspecting my body more often not only making me bend over but also began making me hold my genitals from side to side to inspect in between my legs. They always mentioned the word clean, which I don't believe had anything to do with what they were doing to me.

I suppose I became numb to it after awhile and it was mostly Jeanie doing it and many times she would make me shower in front of her and watch how I washed myself telling me things like I needed more soap. She even instructed me on how to wash my hair which I believe was only a ruse to see me nude. When Marge did these things she never said much to me but Jeanie always talked even when she made me shower in front of her. She often mentioned my gentials using the words penis, scrotum, testicals and anus which I admit now at the time I wasn't completly sure what tsticals were. After I was there almost a year it seemed Marge was bored with making me strip but Jeanie became more demanding and not only made me strip down but also would watch me shower a couple times a week. I was at her mercy and then one night without trying or wanting to I got an erection while I was showering in front of her. I was 12 by then and did know what sex was about but sure enough Jeanie began telling me what an erection was and all about arousal telling me how it happens. She even asked me if I masturbated to which I said no but did by that time, but not often. When I think back about those years now I almost laugh about it but also think Jeanie was a frustrated girl and had no sex life at the time. Never did she or Marge ever have any sexual contact with me and the only times they touched me was when they gave me an enema. The reason I think of it as abuse was the fact they forced nudity on me not only seeing me naked several times a week but also by the embarrassment it caused me the entire time I lived there. As I got a little older I would often get an erection when Jeanie watched me shower which made things even more humiliating and she often asked me about maturbation which I never admitted to her. She would say she didn't beleive me but I still denied I did. I was almost 14 when I finally went to Newark to live with my father. I never told him what I went through and never really told anyone about those years. Even now I never tell anyone because I think it makes me sound stupid and it is to embarrassing to talk to someone about.