How to tell this story.

At 17 my neighbor took me in. His wife is an ex nun who fell from grace with him. She hates her 'form', and says she is married to him and she is there for their spiritual well being and that I am there for his carnal pleasure. I sleep with him, and I have sex with him. To me sex is not a sin and I enjoy it. I like sleeping with him and like it when he has sex with me. I won't say it is pleasure it is more a total fulfillment when he does.

She gets sex when she preaches too much to him, he gets fed up and then she has to pay for her sins as he has sex with her, it is her punishment for her 'form' and for falling from grace. After he has sex with her she is always quiet and she can be nice. Sometimes I just want him to take her so she shuts up about sin.

Sometimes she watches when he has sex with me, it is spooky. She stands there and looks at me and after he is done she tells me that I am a sinner for liking it. I don't like to watch when he has sex with her she always puts on this face like she is being crucified.

I want to have a child, but I don't want a child around her, she has too many issues. I know she can't go back to being a nun because she is not pure and anyway he won't let her. I have thought about leaving, but I won't so it is not worth thinking about it.