This is kind of a combination of a confession, a wish, a festish, and my dreams. So - "anything goes" I guess.

I have been involved with another woman for over 15 years.
She is married, we started seeing each other when I was single, but I was never able to give her up even after I got married.
Her husband, Steve, has been clueless all these years, and I do sometimes feel bad for him not knowing he has been sharing his wife for so long.

Due to both her and my work schedules changing, the affair was forced to end about 6 months ago.
I miss it so much.
Mostly I miss having sex with her AFTER she and her husband had sex. Its just something I got hooked on. She would seduce him before he left for work, and I would go to their house shortly after he left. I cant tell you how many mouthfuls of his cum I have eaten out of his wife over the years. It's like it was a crazy "reverse cuckold" thing - I knew she was having sex with another guy, it was a turn on for me, and I enjoyed the humiliation of eating his cum as much as possible.
I miss how easy I slid inside her, having the husbands cum there first as lubrication for us.
I miss the times I would have her call him AS i was eating her out.
I miss giving her that mixture of cum inside her - both mine and Steves blended together.
I miss being in his house, in his bed, and in his wife. That never got old.

My wife knows my number 1 fantasy would be for her to have sex on the side with another guy. Its been my dream since our honeymoon. I want to do the same things with her that I did with the other woman. I cant imagine how exciting it would be to go down on my own wife with another guys cum there.
But so far, she refuses to even consider doing that.

What can I do??

I started giving my wife oral sex after WE have sex, but thats not the same.
I confess that I miss the sloppy seconds Steve unkowningly was feeding me.

Would love to hear from others about this, but I dont know if its allowed to put an email address in here.
My wife has sensed I am more "down" lately - and I do feel pretty depressed since the affair ended.
But I certainly cant tell her that is the reason.

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by Anonymous on Feb 3, 2016 at 7:33 AM

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