Why can I never leave him? As an incoming freshman I went to an orientation at the college I was going to attend. My roommate for the week and I went to a get together put on by the school. I found myself with this guy all alone, away from the other students, walking away from the school, to his apartment, where he had sex with me, it was my first time, the world was going faster than I could handle, there I was standing in this room, and the next thing I know I was naked leaning over a couch and he was asking me how I liked it. I remember telling him that I liked it, he then took me to his bed and he had sex with me all over the place, including anal.

He walked me back to the dorm on campus the next morning.

That was five years ago, I still live with him, we are in a larger apartment. Everyone thinks I am his wife, sometimes I use his last name because it is easier. He now has a job on campus. I am always stressed, what if he meets a young woman there, like I was when he met me.

I think he should marry me and get it over with. He wants me to stay with him because I want to, not because of a piece of paper. I won't leave, I told him if he didn't marry me then I should leave, but I can't. Someday I want to have children, but I want to be married. The sooner the better, I am going to turn 25. I am so hot inside wanting to have a baby, that is all I can think about.