So .. my wish may seem lame but have to get it off my chest as it's eating me up inside . I had an fwb , roughly 2 years ago .. who was 25 ( i was 39 at the time ) . He was the only guy - who has ever made me cum through normal sex , through oral and anal and .. who alsogave me my first squirting orgasm :) problem is .. while we were together , he was married with 2 kids ( still is ) .. and also his wife , was best friends for 7 years with my daughter of the same age ! I felt so guilty that .. i kept picking arguments with him so he'd get pissed off and split with me ( we we're more or less dating for 4 mnths , we'd go out for dinner , lunch , shopping etc all the time and he'd buy me presents ) but it felt so wrong and for whatever reason we ended up parting ways . Found he was banging someone else not long before we split anyway so all. good . Thing is .. i would do anything to get him back and it's near turning into an obsession how much i think about this , given the complexity of the situation to begin with , and because he was such a player ( obviously ) anyway ! He lives very closeby to me , and we are always seeing eachother locally all the time . I think , given the chance .. he and i would hook back up but i am too scared or dont know how to go about this especially as we stirred shit up with eachother after we parted . I feel he'd overlook this though as would i . I feel stupid and guilty for even wanting him still but yea i do ! This time round - i'd even split up his martiage just to have him for myself omg feel so bad saying that but being honest . I really love this guy !