My son is eighteen, and, in the past couple of years, I have felt a growing sexual attraction to him. I know it's wrong, and really fucked up, but whenever I'm around him, my heart starts racing, and I begin shaking. At night, completely out of my control, I have sex dreams about him, and, even during the day, I find myself idly daydreaming about what it would be like with him.

Lately, it's gotten to the point where I find myself seriously thinking about trying to seduce him. I know it would more than likely freak him out, but, in the back of my mind, there's that thought of, "Maybe he won't freak out. Maybe he'll let me fuck him," and that just makes me want to attempt it even more.

Thoughts?